I had received the post below, and recently was asked if there was some way we could help Tami Howard. The week before she was diagnosed with cancer, she was fired from her long time job in a pet store. This is a person who has always treated others with respect and been a great friend of our breed. Somehow she has kept her sense of humor, can we find a sense of compassion? It may be because of the recent losses, Jane losing her son, yesterday's death of Rickie, the fact that we no longer have John and so many others with us, but I wonder if we can't help one more person in a time of need. I know t hat we are all trying to find the funds for a handler at the national; we are shopping for the right outfit for the dinner, some of us won't be in North Carolina because of finances, we just gave all we could to those in New Orleans, and we all have our own problems, bills to pay, lives to live and worries. But, Tami is spending too much of her energies worried about finances, buying dog food, and surviving on no income. She needs some peace and comfort to help her fight her battles. I tried to think of a fund raiser we could do. Or possibly an auction with things people would want. And then I decided to just ask us all to send a check. I know that is asking a lot right now, but Tami is still with us and I want her here to talk to us for the future. If by a sacrifice now we can give her some tranquility, we should do it. It is not for us to get anything, it is not so that we can brag we did something, it is not so we can feel good about what we have done. But, with the recent losses, the lack of humanity we have just experienced with negative posts, and the knowledge that we can help, that I am asking each of us to do a small gesture to help a member of our extended family. If you know Tami I know you want to help. This is a gentle sweet lady that never did anything to hurt anyone. If you don't know her, that would mean even more, if you could find a space in your heart to help. This is what she just sent to me, and if she can laugh now, we can honor that by helping her. Hi, I went for my chemo today.They decided I needed a hour talk with my oncoligist ,2 nurses and my pain management person instead.Seems they all feel Im not doing well on this new chemo amd should stop it.(well it did cause sharp stabbing pain in a body part that is there anymore and made me think my bard port was trying to eat its way out and my other boob felt like id been shot at close range with buckshot)My hands and feet swelled till I looked like I was morphing into the incredible hulk and the worst by far,was my legs felt cut of at the hip only partly left so I could feel the butcher knives someone was sticking in them.oh and did I forget to mention the white blood cells went nuts and tried to push their way out my bones.3 days a begged to just stop breathing!) I cant imagine why they thik I may want to stop this chemo...then out come the numbers....at 5 yrs with whats in me now chemo wise I have a 43%chance of making it that long,If I stop the taxomin?now I have 51% If I take the tamoxifan(cuz my cancer is estrogen positive)It takes me to 58%,or I can have them reduce the dose on the killer chemo and try to get through 6 more treatments(4 hrs each) and boost my percentile to 80%.I told them im not a quiter and didnt want to ruin the study I was in. So My oncoligist reduced my chemo 20% and I went through with it...although scared to death.He plans to beat the pain to me and has already started me on 30 m oxycontin twice a day and the quick acting oxy every 2-4 hours as needed with motrin 800,plus 300 mil of the neurontin 3 times a day to numb my nerves when they try to catch on fire and eat their way out of my skin..oh and the 2ml of xanax and 10 ml of ambien at bedtime and a protonix so i dont get ulcers from all these pills!!!!!!Oh and cant forget my 3 blood pressure pills and my antidepressants..which i think is a plecebo! Still think ill get through this Evan? Im beginning to have my doubts. lLove, Tami,Duce ,Bum & Mephisto(whos #16 top living ROM sire last year!) I am sending Tami what I can today, please join me if you feel able. Her address is Tami Howard 8100 W. St. Joseph Hwy Lansing, Michigan 48917. 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