<USS Banshee> "Just Before Sleep Comes."
- From: EnsnSaraCrusher@xxxxxxx
- To: ussbanshee@xxxxxxxxxxxxx
- Date: Sat, 4 Sep 2004 23:50:18 EDT
"Just Before Sleep Comes."
By: Lt. Commander Sara Kaelyre
The only sounds in the room were the sound of shallow rhythmic breathing,
the kind that comes with a deep and peaceful sleep, and the soft whistle of a
winter wind blowing through the trees that surrounded the holographic
replication of Sara’s Aunt Beverly’s Aspen condo. There was one other sound
but only
Sara could hear it. As she lie in the large plush bed entangled in it’s soft
white sheets and her sleeping wife‘s arms, both of them bathed in the silver
moon light streaming from the skylight, her head resting perfectly on Cyanah’
s chest, Sara listened to the beating of her Imzadi’s heart. It was strong
and steady and it amazed Sara at how it seemed to beat in sync with her own.
She lied there listening to Cyanah’s heart beat and her soft breathing and
watched out the large picture window as the holographic snow danced in the cold
Colorado winds and thanked whatever deity might be listening, be they Human,
Betazoid, or Delosian, that Cyanah had come to her office with her ‘It’s
us-time. No working tonight.’ edict. Sara hadn’t realized how utterly
exhausted she was mentally and physically until she had settled in next to
Cyanah in
the hot tub. Nor had she realized just how much she’d missed Cyanah and
spending time with her until she was wrapped in her wife’s arms while they
sat on
the couch watching the fire crackle and pop in the fire place. Sara was
starting to feel better then she had felt in weeks. She felt relaxed and at
peace,
and even though her body cried out for sleep it still felt warm and tingled
from the night’s activities.
It still surprised Sara that someone could know her and love her so
completely that she knew just when Sara was about to break and could pull her
back
from the edge. As Sara stared out the window at the mountains and the swirling
snow she knew deep down that that edge was still there. She knew that the
night she was spending with her lover locked away privately on the holodeck
wouldn’t last forever and that if she wanted to prevent the image of herself
in
her dreams she’d have to get back to work and she’d have to stand right on
that edge again.
But for now Sara had promised herself she wouldn’t think about work, about
the half completed compound that sat in her lab unless without more work, or
about the old woman who haunted her dreams, ideas, and thoughts. For a brief
moment Sara did allow herself to think about the dream that had started this,
only this time her thoughts were about the positive aspects of it not the
ones she saw as negative. She thought about the life they’d had in her
dream,
the way they were, and their careers, their home, and their family. A slow
smile stretched across Sara’s face as she wondered how Cyanah would react if
she
told her about the dream.
Would Cyanah laugh at how in her dream of their future fifty some years down
the road, Sara still hated waking up in the mornings and still tried to fend
of the day by hiding under the covers? Would she laugh at the idea of
herself being a big wig at Daystorm, or at their double sided boxed pips? Would
she
think it funny that fifty years from now she’d still be trying to get Sara
to cut down on her coffee intake? What would she think about them having four
children, all girls, and the names that Sara had dreamt about? Would she think
it was funny that Sara’s dating advice to their daughters was not to date
anyone named Asper?
Sara’s mind quickly filled with wonderful questions about what their future
would be like for real. How many children would they have? Would they really
settle on Earth or could Betazed or Delos be a possibility? Would they settle
on a planet at all? Science ships needed captains and so would the new fleet
of medical ships Star Fleet was planning. The possibilities were endless and
that thought made Sara smile brightly. She hadn’t felt the warmth and
excitement of the unknown that lay ahead of them since they returned from
Delos,
since she had became so focused on the single aspect of her dream that scared
her.
‘It’ll all be worth it when we’re watching our family grow by generations
together.’ Sara told herself as she felt herself falling into those
heightened
moments of awareness that came just before sleep took over. Sara closed her
eyes and listened to Cyanah’s heart beat and tightened her hold around
Cyanah’
s waist. She smiled and the last thing she thought about before falling
completely asleep was how much she was in love and how happy she was right
then
and there and about how she wanted more of these moments.
Without knowing it her resolve to complete the treatment that would alter
her physical being right down to her DNA was renewed.
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