?A New Light? ? Chapter One by Lieutenant Sara Crusher and Lieutenant JG Cyanah Kaelyre The heat in the small wooden room made Cyanah's eyelids droop with sweet relaxation as droplets of sweat continued to form on her forehead. After wiping them away yet again, she let her hand fall to her side, too sedate to do much more. She rolled her head to the left and smiled at Sara, who was sitting next to her, clad identically in a white towel. "I'm glad I came here with you. This feels divine... and that massage..." Cyanah let her mind wander to the deep tissue massage that the burly Russian woman had given her a little while ago. Because of that woman's strong hands, her back muscles were so relaxed that movement was out of the question. Sara rested her head on the back of the bench that she and Cyanah were sitting on. Her eyes closed and for the first time in months she wasn't sore, stiff or on empathic overdrive. The outside world seemed to melt away with the heat. She smiled and turned her head at the sound of Cy's voice but she didn't open her eyes. "I know... I told you it was nice." She smiled a bit and took a deep breath as she sat up straight. "I'm glad you?re enjoying yourself." Cyanah exhaled slowly, the hot air opening her sinuses. "Lay back down, Sara... how do you have the energy to sit up like that?" "This is the most energy I've had in ages, Cy." She stopped before going into detail. She didn't want to spoil the mood, neither her own nor Cy's. She did however allow herself to make sure Cy was in a good mood. She then settled back down on the bench and was quiet for a while before letting out a sigh that was more then just one of relaxation. "I'm sure that I'll be energized once I get out of this room, but I'd have to get up to leave, and that takes too much energy." Cyanah languidly played with the top of her towel as it crossed her breasts and idly wondered what Sara was thinking. "I envy that empathy of yours, Sara. It must be nice not to need to guess what someone is feeling." Sara sat up again and gave Cy a funny look. "It's not always a good thing." She paused long enough to find her water bottle. "It used to be alright but lately it's been more then I can handle." She paused again to take a long drink from her water. Things had only gotten more complicated in the past few days. It was almost as if her own emotions were kicking her into overdrive. She sighed again. "But you don't want to be bored with this. What d?ya say we get out of here and get a drink or something?" Cyanah shrugged, figuring that Josh had made an ass out of himself again and that Sara might not want to talk about it. She would say something if she needed to, Cyanah thought as she nodded and gathered the energy to stand. A cold drink, preferably something frozen and fruity with an umbrella in it, would certainly hit the spot. "Do you know a good place for drinks on DS9, Sara?" Sara slowly stood, grabbing her towel before it had a chance to sneak loose. "There's only one place I know of? Quark's." She stepped off the bench and towards the doors. "It was nice while it lasted," she said softy. Delosian hearing was slightly above the human standard, so Cyanah was able to overhear what Sara obviously meant for her not to. She stood, wondering what Sara meant, and her imagination ran wild with possibilities. Cyanah dismissed every last one of them, chastising herself for jumping to conclusions about her friend. The two women went into the locker room, which seemed amazingly cold to Cyanah after the sauna. She unabashedly removed her towel and looked around for something warm, finally spotting the showers. "Real water showers! You didn't tell me that they have real showers! I haven't had a water shower since graduating from the Academy!" Sara stepped carefully onto the tile floor of the locker room to avoid slipping but to almost no avail. She slipped a bit was quick enough to find her balance before making a total fool of herself. She walked softly behind Cy towards the showers. Sara looked around the room and at the showers and then back at Cy who had tossed her towel to the ground. She could feel herself turn crimson again and quickly turned her head, but the sound of Cy's voice as well was something else. Something she was unsure of made Sara look in Cy?s direction again. "Ooo, a hot shower sounds nice," she agreed as she allowed herself to really look at Cyanah. Sara had noticed how pretty she was the first time she had seen her, but had no idea she... She stopped herself and quickly ducked into a shower stall. "What are you doing?" she asked herself as she placed her towel on the hook in the shower. She turned the hot water on and once again everything melted away. Cyanah entered her own stall and luxuriated in the stream of hot water for several long minutes. Invigorated, she emerged from the shower, feeling totally relaxed and refreshed from her experience at the spa. After finding her discarded towel on the floor, she began to dry herself, but paused to smile at Sara as she finished her own shower. "I feel so energized! Thanks for bringing me here, Sara." Sara smiled as she wrapped her towel around herself again. "You?re welcome? And thank you for coming with me." She paused as she walked over to the lockers and started wondering where in the world they had put their uniforms. "It was nice to spend a day free from everything and everyone," she said as she began to open lockers. It really was nice not to be under a lot of pressure and stress. She never felt that way while she was Cy. No wonder she had taken to her so fast. "Here they are, Sara," Cyanah said as she opened a locker and discovered their uniforms. Half an hour later, the two women were dressed and enjoying piña coladas at Quark's. Cyanah sipped at her drink and played with the umbrella that was stuck into a slice of banana on the drink's white surface. "Ahhhh... that's just right after the heat of the sauna," she said, smiling across the table. Sara took a sip of her drink and smiled back across the table. "Cy, can I ask you another question?" Sara asked as watched her friend played with her umbrella, and Cy nodded. "How do you know when you?re really in love with someone?" Sara surprised herself. She wasn't normally one to talk about such things; she liked keeping tight lids on things. But for some reason she felt like talking. "I mean... Josh told me he was in love with and I'm in love with him... I think. But if I were wouldn't I want to be with him?" Sara stopped sipping at her drink thinking that the alcohol had gone to her head and then tried really hard to back out of the remarks she had made. Maybe, she hoped, Cy wouldn't pick up on what she meant. Cyanah considered carefully the implications of what Sara had said. She had never been happy about Sara's relationship with Josh, but it wasn't her place to judge, only to be there to support Sara when she was needed. Now, though, it seemed that Sara was reaching out, and she intended to lend all the support she could. Cyanah also noticed that her friend was projecting something else, but she resolved to ignore that until what it was became clearer. "Yes," she began hesitantly, "I would think that you would want to be with someone you claimed to love." Sara ran her fingers though her hair and sighed. She hated feeling like this. "But how do you know?" She asked again. "If you?re in love with someone like that or if it's something else." She felt a sudden urge to want to be five years old again running around on her mother's ship avoiding the security officers. Life was so much easier at that age. She sighed again and then smiled. "I am so sorry, Cy... We were having a great time then I have to torpedo the whole mood." "I wouldn't be your best friend if I wasn't willing to listen when you need someone to listen, Sara. And the mood is different now, but not unpleasant. Conversations like this make us better friends, you know?" Sara smiled and nodded. "I wish I felt like this around everyone else. I'm never tense or scared or pressured around you." She smiled again as she pushed her empty glass to the side. "Which reminds me? How'd you get over your nervousness around Morrigan? The last few times I've been around you two together it's been different? She still scares me." A waiter came by with a pitcher of the frozen drink and filled their glasses as Cyanah chuckled to herself. She didn't think that Rhiannon wanted the crew to know of their relations, so Cyanah had to take a moment to formulate her answer. "I was simply honest with her, Sara. Afterwards, I found that there was never a cause to be nervous." Sara looked over the rim of her glass and nearly choked as she laughed. "That's ?cause you've never been in trouble with her." She said as she put the glass down. "I guess now that I'm CMO and I'll be working with her I really need to get over this stupid fear I have of her. Then again I wouldn't have to be scared of her if I'd stop doing stupid stuff." Sara couldn't help but to laugh at herself. "There's no reason to fear her, really. At least that's what I've discovered. And you wouldn't be CMO now if you had done anything extremely stupid, so what's to worry about? Just be honest with yourself and her." Again Sara nodded and smiled. "Yeah, and avoid Josh while on duty and stay clear of the conference room," she teased. She hadn't felt this open and this good about things in a long time. Sara smiled again, only this time she locked eyes with Cy. A moment passed before Sara went on with her thoughts. "Thanks, Cy," she said softly. Cyanah kept her eyes focused on Sara's. "Anytime, Sara." Sara couldn't take her eyes from Cyanah's. There was something there, something she had never noticed before, or maybe was afraid to see. Suddenly the confusion seemed to clear and her feelings about Josh and Tony seemed unreal compared to what ever this was. Mere minutes passed but for Sara it seemed like forever; she finally broke their gaze and the confusion and fog of her life came rolling back in, along with the effects of two drinks on her small body. Cyanah looked at Sara for a long moment after the gaze was broken, also feeling the pleasant warmth of the alcohol spreading through her slight frame, but fairly sure that she now knew what Sara was trying to say. Even so, she decided to let Sara come to terms with her feelings at her own pace. Cyanah raised her glass, noting that it had been filled again, and clinked it with Sara's.