Olive Branch Personal Log, Delaney Scott... Man, it's some time since I've recorded one of these. Yet, it also seems like just yesterday. I'm a little surprised with how easily everything's coming back to me, despite my assurances to Admiral Ul'tali. Speaking of which, the moment I realized that Einin was actually my ship, I knew he had to be in on the game. Mom's telling me that he was a friend of Dad's... I called down to Leavenworth after taking off, asked him about it. Turns out Mom was wrong about Dad's having nothing to do with my going there. The admiral said Dad pulled some strings back then, too. Said Dad was worried if anyone knew the truth about me they might try to kill me, and even though he hated to think of what spending seven years at Leavenworth might do to me because of how severely restricted life is there, Dad thought it was the safest place for me to be. Don't know how I'm supposed to feel about that. Mom and Admiral Ul'tali both told me that Dad's actions were in my best interests. He got me sent to a prison where the only time I didn't have walls around me was if I was out in the yard. And he somehow, some way, bought me an entire space shuttle that's about as good as any ship of the Fleet because he knew I wouldn't want to live in his house if I didn't return to Starfleet, either by choice or discharge. He did these things, they said, because he loves me. Here's what I see: When we got back to Earth after leaving DS9, OPC and Starfleet Command ruled that because of his part in covering up my origins, he had to face discipline one way or another. But because he had otherwise been an exemplary officer of the Fleet, they gave him the option of early retirement over facing a court-martial---and he took the early retirement. Did I get that choice? Quit or this goes to trial? No. I mean, he took the easy way out, and I ended up spending more than six years in prison. If only Dad had understood, if only he had supported me, Leavenworth would have been New Zealand to me. I would not have cared one micron about the trial or the prison sentence if only he had not been so against my need to know. And to top it all off, he called me insane. Yeah, I know that's semantics, and he really said the quest itself was insane, but I don't care about the psychobabble. To me, it's the same thing. So how can he say that he loves me, if he only loves half of me? Why go to all the trouble of sending me to a place he was sure would protect me and buying me this kick-ass ship if he hates the other half of who I am? It doesn't make sense. I can't think of that anymore. Not right now. I really wish I still had friends to talk to. The ones I had on the Ireland haven't spoken to me since my trial, and I admit that it makes me really sad. They know the arrest charges, but they don't know the reason behind them. And I couldn't share the information because I'd been ordered to keep my mouth shut. So they started pulling away even before the cell forcefield went up for the first time. Now there's no one for me to talk to except Mom and counselors. Friends would be real nice right now. At least one would. I'd love for someone besides me to be excited about my Little Bird. Yeah, I've given my ship a nickname that's not really a nickname at all, just the Celtic meaning of it's given name. And yeah, this ship was one of my dad's ways of trying to smooth things over between us, and I know I'm gonna have to square with that some day, but right now I gotta admit I'm jazzed. I mean, I have my very own Delta-class shuttle! This thing has a hull of tetraburnium alloy, parametallic hull plating, unimatrix shielding, a compliment of twenty photonic missiles and twelve micro quantum torpedoes, and Type-8 phasers that are usually only mounted on full-sized starships. I would have thought that when Einin changed hands Starfleet would have stripped her of all weapons but the phasers, taking them down to Type-6's or Type-4's. Actually makes me glad for whatever influence and/or friends Dad must still have in Starfleet. Because if I hadn't decided to stay, or they'd chucked me out, all these weapons and protective elements sure would make me feel a whole lot safer out in space by myself. Should I call Dad? Or at least send him a message? I really am torn---don't know what I should do. I've despised him for almost seven years, yet he's done something so wonderful for me, buying Little Bird. I wish it was as easy to stop hating as it was to start. ***** Frank Scott sighed heavily, walking away from the window, out of which he could see shuttlecraft flying too and fro. He often wondered why he had stayed in San Francisco, but each time he did he reminded himself that Marsha still had a career, despite the fallout she'd experienced over Laney. In fact, Marsha was still at BioCon---where she'd gone to work after Laney's trial---toiling away on her latest project. He was eating dinner alone tonight. After a sandwich and a glass of merlot, Frank headed toward the bathroom, intending to take a shower. As he walked down the hall he passed the home office he and Marsha shared, although she used it more than he did. Their communications terminal was in there, and he stopped short when he saw the faint flashing of the message waiting light. Curious, he stepped into the room and turned on the lights, then sat down at the terminal and switched it on. Curiosity became shock when he saw that the message was from Laney---and addressed to him. She had not said one word to him since they'd left the Changeling homeworld, not even when she found out about his purchase of the Einin from Starfleet. Actually nervous now, wary of what Laney might have to say, Frank opened the message. When her face popped up on the screen, he noted that she looked virtually the same as she had nearly seven years ago---exactly like her mother, young and beautiful. But there was an edge to her eyes, a hardness to the set of her jaw. Whether that was because of spending so much time on the inside or because she was forcing herself to send this message he couldn't say. Probably a bit of both. "Hello, Daddy. I'm sure you're surprised to be getting this message---quite frankly, I'm surprised I'm sending it. But you and Mother didn't raise me to be an ungrateful brat, and I couldn't not acknowledge the fact that you are the one who arranged the purchase of Little Bird. Sorry, I guess I should have said Einin, but already I keep finding myself referring to the ship by the meaning of her name, rather than the name itself. "Anyway, even though for the life of me I cannot fathom how you convinced Starfleet to part with her and bought this shuttle, I am glad you did. Mom was right about one thing---I wouldn't have stayed with you guys had I not been able to go back to Starfleet, or chosen not to. I honestly don't know what I would have done, but the Einin would definitely have given me the freedom to bounce around a bit until I had that figured out. I also don't get why Starfleet didn't strip all the weapons out of her, but were I going it solo, those would surely come in handy. Heck, they still might, because I don't doubt that my new CO will want to make use of her. "Mom wants me to start talking to you. Well, don't get your hopes up that this message will be the first of many. You know damn well it has nothing to do with my going to prison---even the prison I went to would have been more tolerable had you only had the testicular fortitude to admit that you were afraid of what I'd become if I were able to join the Link, and that's why you didn't want me to go to the Changeling homeworld. Well, you knew when you gave me your name that I wasn't entirely Human, and it isn't as if I can change being what I am. I won't say I'm proud to be half-Changeling, because they did attempt a tyrannical overthrow of the entire Alpha Quadrant. But I'm not going to say I'm ashamed of it, either. Nor am I mentally unstable, or have you forgotten calling my quest for the truth "insane"? I am what I am, Dad, and you're just going to have to accept that. "Either you love all of me, or you don't love me at all." When the screen went black, he sat staring at it for what seemed like hours, the desire for a shower forgotten. Hurt tore at his heart that quickly became physical pain. His chest ached. She was still so angry. Still so unforgiving. The rift between father and daughter had widened, despite his fee ble attempts to breach the distance. Even had he been able to speak to her, she would probably not have believed anything he said, the thing he wanted most to say being that he was not afraid of her, but afraid for her. Truth was, he loved Laney very deeply, so much so that had he and Marsha had children after her, he did not think he could have loved them as much as he did her. She was not a child of his blood, but she was forever the child of his heart. Then suddenly, the pain subsided. Perhaps it would not be the first of many, but it was the first in over six years. And that was a start.