Hi Senn, oh thank you. I'm so happy to know I'm not alone in how I felt and of course we have so much in common I knew you would understand. It's so hard being a new comer trying to fit into a new gang. I even got feelings of not being good enough and that I'm not liked and that I'm being judged by others. I thought oh my God does this happy, secure and well established group want an outsider like me intruding? Do they really want me and am I welcome.. I admit if it wasn't for Carol's help and support and kind reassurance I may not have persevered for as long as I did I'm sure I would have left but of course now I'm very happy I persevered certainly well worth it. Yeah, opening up about personal feelings and emotions and our situation seems to help a lot and make a difference as it gives us all a better understanding of each other. Carol was the only person who could really help me as we have known each other for such a long time she understands me and my emotions and feelings and of course with her already knowing lots of people on here she could help me it was ideal. Love Clare