Clare, that was put over very well and its good to no that the group helps others.We can all learn from the older one's and we older one's can learn from you younger one's too. A two way street as they say. And as for Carol, well you learn something everyday from her don't we. bless her little heart. heeheehee. love Malcolm. xxx Hi Jim and all, this is how I felt when I first joined this group. It seemed to me that everyone knew each other so well in fact they had known each other for years as had been on here so long. I felt daunted as everyone seemed so well established on here with each other there was lots of chatter and banter that only the group understood and knew about that outsiders like me didn't know the meaning of. All seemed happy and secure with each other with knowing each other so well and for so long. I sort of felt like an outsider, a new girl trying to fit into a new gang. I felt that I wasn't sure if and how I would fit in and of course as I didn't really know anyone, what they were like or their ways I didn't feel secure at times. Thoughts went through my mind such as will everyone be interested in what I have to say, will they like me and accept me as I am for myself and my situation. I found it a bit hard going and just like fitting into a new group I had all those feelings. It was all thanks to my lovely special friend Carol on here who helped me through most of it and giving me tips, helping me to get to know others as she knew quite a few on here already and she kept reassuring me to persevere. Well now I'm so happy I did as I feel so much more established on here than I did back then. I just kept being myself and I now feel I'm fitting in. Also us all sharing our life stories is helping me so much as it gives us all more of an understanding of each other so can support each other even more. Also now I have shared my life story I'm so happy to find others seem to be understanding me more now too and I'm so happy that opening up about really personal stuff has made such a difference. I'm feeling much happier and secure now I'm getting to know others on here so much more and I'm also getting to know the meaning of all that banter too. I can soon work out now if someone is joking or being serious. I know others more now and of course as I'm happy and strong in myself I don't take things too personal. Knowing others makes such a big difference to how we feel and I no longer feel on the outside. I thought I would share this with you all. As long as we all keep chatting to each other no matter what and of course having fun I will stay happy on here. Love Clare