[win2kforum] Re: My life
- From: "Andrew L Shriner" <andrew@xxxxxxxxxxxxxx>
- To: <win2kforum@xxxxxxxxxxxxx>
- Date: Thu, 10 May 2001 17:52:13 -0400
Please do not respond to this thread.
I was not asking for help; I sent the message because several people
contacted me individually, and this was the easiest means of contacting all
of them.
I'm sorry if I offended anyone.
Andrew Shriner
Win2kForum List Owner
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"A true friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing it
back to you when you have forgotten the words."
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Andrew L Shriner
Shriner Technology
andrew@xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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ICQ: 9284919
AIM: shrinercomp
Yahoo: shrinertech
MSN: shrinercomp
----- Original Message -----
From: "Joshua M. Phillips" <josh@xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx>
To: <win2kforum@xxxxxxxxxxxxx>
Sent: Thursday, May 10, 2001 5:46 PM
Subject: [win2kforum] Re: My life
>
> Could the moderator please kill this thread before it gets out of hand
> (John Madden?). And if anybody objects to this I suggest reading the
> freelists.org policy.
>
> As for Mr. Shriner, it is clear that you need some help, but this is not
> the place to get it. Your church, the counselors at your school, close
> friends; that is where you need to be going for help on this issue. Hang
> in there, buddy.
>
> Josh
>
> On Thu, 10 May 2001, Andrew L Shriner illustriously signified the
following:
>
> > (Please excuse any profanity this message may have. I'll try not to use
it; but right now I'm mad at my parents.)
> >
> > There have been a LOT of people who have asked me what is going on in my
life, showed support, etc. I love to chat about such things, but I don't
have time to retype the exact same message over and over. Here's what's
actually happening.
> >
> > I know that this message may seem redundant to some, since some know
more about me than others, but this message is being sent to many people,
and I don't have time to individually change the message.
> >
> > First of all, some of you know that I'm gay, and some of you don't. So
there it is. If you don't like it, either unsubscribe from the mailing lists
that I moderate, because I'm intolerant of homophobes, or adjust. Sorry to
sound rude; homophobic people have really gotten on my nerves in the last
few days.
> >
> > As I said, I'm gay, and my parents are extremely homophobic. My dad
throws a fit and loses his temper if I so much as go to McDonald's, since
they openly hire gays (or so he has said). Therefore, I can't tell my
parents. I'm afraid for my life because I don't know what they would do if
they did find out. My sister already told them of the rumors going around
the school that I'm gay, and I denied it. I think that mom believed me, I'm
not sure.
> >
> > My parents have been emotionally abusing me for almost 7 years. That's
around the time that my uncle died and my mom started college again, and has
since believed that she knows everything. Both of my parents make fun of me
for everything I do and try to do. Nothing I do is right, according to them.
My grades are slipping because I can't concentrate in school, I'm too
concerned about home, etc. It's sort-of a catch 22. I can't remember when I
last received a compliment from them. It's been ages.
> >
> > I just can't handle the situation by myself any more. I told a few
teachers at the highschool, as well as a few friends that I trust. I haven't
told that many people, though. One person, that I have not told, walked in
the auditorium yesterday, and practically screamed "Looks like there's a
faggot on the catwalk!!!" I ran over to the other side of the catwalk, but
didn't see who it was. I have a good idea though. Had I gotten there in
time, he may just have met a 200 pound 10 mirror reflection spotlight on
it's way to the floor to greet him. (No, I wouldn't have done it, but it
would be nice to give him the scare of his life. He doesn't realize how many
daggers he is throwing each time he says that stuff.)
> >
> > Mom took my computer a few days ago, and locked it in her office. She
then locks the office at night, so I can't use it while she's asleep. Sad
thing; I'm very much more productive in the middle of the night for some
reason. Last night, mom said that I wasn't going to have access to the
computer at all tonight. By some devine intervention or something, the lock
on the door failed to close. That's how I'm able to send this e-mail. While
she was on her screaming streak last night, she also forbade me from ever
helping the music department again. Simply put, like hell am I going to
leave the department. The music department means the world to me. Sometimes,
even more than computers do. I don't care how terrible my mom tries to make
my life, she will fail. I don't care if I literally have to walk the 20
miles to the school, I will help the department, and I will be at every last
damn music booster meeting. (Since this message is going to one of the music
department directors, !
> do NOT try to stop me from helping you or slow down the pace any. I WILL
continue to help, no matter what mom says!)
> >
> > I was about to commit suicide a couple of weeks ago, when I suddenly had
the urge to call my best friend in Columbus. I didn't tell him what I was
about to do, but his words calmed me down enough that I realized that I
never want to do that. He also said that if I was ever in danger, to just
call, and he'd help out any way possible ASAP. If I ever have that feeling
again, I will call him or some other adult that I trust.
> >
> > I promised the technology director today that I would talk to one of the
guidance counselors tomorrow. So now I just need to decide which one. I'm
sure that they will try to get me professional help. It will probably hinder
more than help, but oh well. I'm willing to try anything.
> >
> > I need to get going. If you have further questions, please ask them! I
love to chat with people. (My contact info is somewhere in my signature
lines below this message.) I just wanted to let everyone know this up front,
so I didn't have to type everything over and over many times. Feel free to
send me a message any time, I just don't know how soon I will get to it. I
will actually have some online access, but not much. Just don't send
anything time sensitive.
> >
> > Andrew
> >
> > -----
> > "A true friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing
it back to you when you have forgotten the words."
> >
> > -----
> > Andrew L Shriner
> > Shriner Technology
> > andrew@xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
> >
> > -----
> > ICQ: 9284919
> > AIM: shrinercomp
> > Yahoo: shrinertech
> > MSN: shrinercomp
> >
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> Joshua M. Phillips
> Data Operations Engineer
> ScoreBoard, Inc.
> www.scoreboardinc.com
> josh@xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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