Shelley my heart goes out to you. Whether they are still in harness or retired when their time comes, it is just never easy when it does. The memories and events of what they have taken us through and taught us will always be a part of us and as such so will they. You two accomplished so much! I was exhausted reading all you did. People think Thane and I are busy bees (at least during summers) but boy you guys took the cake! In time when you think of Judson, the heartache will have diminished and you will smile or laugh at the memory you recalled. With your first though- its always tough. You've probably experienced a pet loss or loss of a friend before, but nothing compares to the loss of your first guide (or prepares you for it) who opened up a whole new world to you. Those of us here get what you are feeling right now. I hope for your happy days ahead as you continue in your partnership with Ludden. I hope Ludden teaches you new things, new lessons that you can add to the ones that Judson began. Best wishes Karyn and Thane