Thankyou Sandy- Its not going to be easy. I have been crying all morning. I truly hope this is just the beginning of retirement and not the beginning of the end. Honestly had I been able to I think I should have adopted another dog 1-2 years ago. I had to think realistically though. To own a dog- especially a service dog it is so important you can afford their care. I already have trouble making ends meet with Met at times. I was not going to bring another dog in here who would have its own financial needs. The result would have been that Met would have to do without some things. In the past anytime I had a real tough time with Met or with dealing with decisions like this, it was always my sweet Nanook that helped me see something positive. Of course after losing her in January... Today though I know that even though I am seeing positive signs in Met that will keep blossoming most likely in the days and months ahead, I also know that he needs me to be the grown up so to speak and do the hard thing- but the right thing where he is concerned. He is 10 years and 8 months old now. He has lived with Epilepsy (diagnosed anyway) for almost 9 years now and has worked as my wonderful sidekick for almost 9 1/2 years now. He has outlived his siblings by anywhere from over 2 1/2 years to over 7 1/2 years and his father by 4 1/2 years. In the beginning besides his moms hypothyroidism, he was the only one who was considered to have a guarded outcome. Though I am sedentary- right now he needs more sedentary life than I. I always told myself that when he needed more, when he showed signs that he did not want this life anymore I would do the brave thing. I don't feel very brave today though.... Karyn and Met