<USS Banshee> "When Life Has New Meaning"
- From: "Brad Ruder" <GroundZero@xxxxxxxxxxxxx>
- To: ussbanshee@xxxxxxxxxxxxx
- Date: Wed, 15 Oct 2003 22:26:42 -0700
?When Life Has New Meaning?
Lieutenant Joshua Asper
There?s a heat that
lies inside everyone. At some point or another in a person?s life
that heat is accelerated and it manages to force its way from the
interior out into the open air. It?s the passion that everyone
possesses that is hardly ever shared. When that one special person
is found and the bond is reached where you may pour your soul openly
that heat is stoked and it burns out of control. Josh had finally
found that person and that fire had lit up his life in more ways than
He lay next to her now and all was right. There was no
job nagging at him, there was not a care in the world that he could
think of, and everything that had happened to him in the past was
staying there. There was an indescribable calm in the room. There
was a silence that was not treacherous, but soothing and welcoming.
Tranquillity had finally found a home in Josh?s quarters and
everything it touched was touched with a deep understanding of
Josh?s eyes looked down at the heaven-sent woman that
lay next to him entwined with his own body. Her delicate hair and
her soft facial features ? perfectly set by the presence of the
sparkling diamonds of her eyes. It was indeed the most beautiful
thing he had ever saw. This woman was so in love with him and he
only reciprocated that deep compassion. It was incredibly simplistic
given the complexities that lie in wait around every corner on every
path of every life. In fact, Josh thought while laying in that
serenity, it was too simple.
Having a habit of reading into
things too much, Josh rolled out of bed as slowly and as softly as he
could. His bare feet gently graced the floor and the silky smooth
sheets slide off his naked torso with ease. Telsia stirred slightly
and readjusted herself, but slipped into the trance of sleep and
pleasantries that he knew she had found herself in. Telsia was
intoxicating to the eye when awake, but when she was asleep she was
again the alluring woman that he knew her to be.
into the living quarters, leaving his divine partner sleeping, Josh
stepped up onto his perch. There was something about stepping up a
foot onto a landing and staring out into the endless abyss of stars
that made Josh feel like he?d risen above the normal way of life and
ascended to a place of greater understand; of great peace. The
planet itself was like a blue and green marble exiled to the
blackness of space, but the glory of its brightened surface seem to
refuse to quell itself in complete darkness ? it wanted
Josh turned at the sound of a soft murmur, almost a cry,
and he walked to Cameron?s door. The small child withered on the bed
and was obviously in terrible angst. A tear ran down his cheek as he
squirmed ? his dreams weren?t going as well as his mother?s. Taking
a step into the room Josh took a deep breath; he didn?t have his
father to fall back on now, but he was determined to show Cameron he
cared. As the boy tossed and turned Josh placed a gentle hand on his
Cameron?s eyes opened and his mouth slowly reworked
itself from a frown into the smile that Josh knew was lying dormant.
Again, Josh ran a caressing hand down the boy?s cheek and sleep
slowly took over the child again. Josh watched as the strength to
stay awake slowly diminished and he watched his son slink into a deep
slumber ? Josh had seen the epitome of innocence. Standing, Josh
headed again for the door way and paused only once to admire his
son?s state of purity before entering the living room once
He had almost reached the safe haven of his bedroom and
Telsia?s arms when he stopped abruptly at the cedar desk just to the
left of his door. The pictures, scattered amongst frames of all
shapes and sizes, were his family ? his first rock. His half sister
Olivia and her husband, Hayden, were there. His father, Logan, and
mother, Catherine, held hands on the dock of some unnamed lake at
some unnamed time with nothing but happiness in their
Jerrad stood under an oak tree on the grounds of the
Presidio in San Francisco. Under his arm was a beautiful girl of
maybe seventeen with blue eyes that could make the ocean green.
Jerrad was happy with his new girlfriend and the studying at the
academy was paying off for he?d graduate a year early and be admitted
to the Daystrom Institute of the Arts. Things couldn?t be better for
Josh ran a hand over his neck and sighed. His entire
family was happy. Hayden and Olivia were happy living on Earth with
whatever pursuits seemed to suit their fancies, but they always
wanted a child. A worthy goal to set and an even greater
satisfaction awaited them ? parenthood. Josh didn?t talk with them
often, but he knew that if something was terribly wrong that he?d
find out about it sooner or later. Jerrad was doing excellent in
school with a lovely girlfriend. The Asper children, Josh surmised
in that brief moment of hindsight clarity, had done their parents
proud and that the dead could rest in peace.
Now, as Josh
sauntered back to bed with his darling?
What was he to call
Girlfriend? They weren?t officially
Wife? Even further from what they really
Acquaintance? It seemed so belittling to think of each
other on such an impersonal level considering all the things that
they?d gone through and all the obstacles that were overcome.
Cameron was a sign of the love and dedication for one another;
acquaintance just seemed too vague.
He looked around his
quarters and stopped. He no longer cared about what the present was
for it was what it was and it couldn?t be changed. Josh gauged his
past as he stared into the eyes of his parents that would be forever
captured in the photograph on his desk. Then, with great confidence
he made a final look back at Cameron and then strode into the room to
join Telsia in bed once more.
The past was gone.
present wasn?t going anywhere.
But the future now had a whole
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