Easing the Pain Part One A Joint Log by Captain Morrigan and Lieutenant Junior Grade J'van D'nalls It didn't take a rocket scientist to see that she wasn't going to get anymore work finished. Captain Rhiannon Morrigan, proud Captain of the newly commissioned Nemesis class starship, had been staring blankly at the PADD in her hands for the better part of 10 minutes. Her eyes were focused on the latest inspection to medical, but her mind was still in the turbolift, replaying each moment of her encounter with Ensign Kaelyre frame by frame as she tried in vain to piece together what she was feeling and why. With a fractured sigh that comes from the feeling that her carefully constructed house of cards was about to come tumbling down around her, she noticed that the alpha shift for the bridge had gone off duty about a half hour previously. She dimly remembered someone telling her about the change in shift, but she had forgotten when and whom. "And I still have to speak with D'nalls," she noted to herself. Though her crew seemed to believe otherwise, Rhiannon Morrigan, the captain, was not the hard case that they seemed to think she was. It wasn't that she didn't like her crew or was trying to make them miserable. She was just painfully aware that they were young and inexperienced. The Dominion War and all its casualties had created an influx of officers who were young for their posts. It was her driving need to make sure that they were ready for anything, and if that meant she had to berate them at every turn, then so be it. All she wanted was for them to remain alive. "Someday, they'll thank you for it," she consoled herself. Her new Chief of Security, however, was a different story. The man obviously had seen his share of active duty and yet on their first encounter she had treated him like a wet behind the ears ensign. Security was suffering greatly from the lack of strong leadership and the man obviously had his shit together. She had studied his record intensely before accepting his transfer into the position. He was an ex-Marine badass who probably had the attitude to boot. She felt he would be a good match to her floundering department. Actually, much to her surprise, and probably it would surprise the crew to know as well, she felt bad about treating him with such arrogance. Of course, there was also that smile that he gave her in medical after her encounter with..... Cyanah. Almost as if he.... knew something. How could he have? Lieutenant Junior Grade D'nalls was sitting behind his large, custom made desk as he waited for the call that he knew would inevitably come. She had apologized to him in an offhanded manner, and informed him that she would be following up on their meeting in medical with a personal visit. He was looking over the various panels in it, making sure everything was running flawlessly when his commbadge twittered like a school girl on her first date. "Captain to D'nalls." Her voice was cool and collected with just a slight edge of something indefinable to it. Stress? Worry? Curiosity? Trying to hide the fact that he was looking forward to this call, he responded. "Yes, Captain" "I apologize for the delay, Lieutenant..... are you available at this moment?" A second apology and a question instead of a command? Morrigan berated herself for putting herself in a somewhat weak position. "I should not be asking if it is convenient for him," she chastised herself. "I should be telling him that it is now convenient for ME." She looked at the two empty margarita glasses on her desk and wondered for a moment if somehow..... nah.... couldn't be. It's just synthehol, right? "Yes Ma'am, I am," His voice was professional and cool. No trace of eagerness, just another day at the office. "Excellent. I will be there shortly." She stood and adjusted her tunic. "I look forward to it." D'nalls winced internally as he realized that he probably did not need to say that, but was careful to not let her hear his uncertainty. "Captain out." Without pausing to think about it another moment, she exited her sanctuary, and nodded to the Beta shift's commanding officer. "Keep me informed." She knew she didn't have to say it, but it helped keep others aware who ultimately held the reins on the ship. Knowing that the game was about to start, J'van began to straighten up. He really didn't need to, the place and more specifically, his office, had been spotless since he took over. Sitting and readjusting his position, he awaited the Captain. His eyes narrowed slightly as he noticed his heartbeat had elevated somewhat. "Am I actually somewhat nervous," he mused. She strode from the lift with her trademark no nonsense manner and into security, not stopping to overtly observe the area, but her eyes capturing the details nonetheless. She noticed the tired expressions on some of the faces and those whose bodies seemed to be recuperating from extended training sessions. She had long ago gotten used to the way people seemed to snap to attention when she passed by, Morrigan's aura (as her mother would have referred to it as) both commanded and usually received respect... and she was used to getting it. Even at the academy, people tended to stand straighter in her presence with the glaring exception of one Victor Andros. She didn't stop as she made a beeline for the security chief's door, but that didn't stop her from noting the looks of satisfaction that some of the staff exchanged as they believed the visit would end with the *new guy* being served with a hot BBQ sauce. She stopped at the door and hit the chime without hesitation, refraining from doing her normal act of just barging into the room. A few snickers caught her attention and she turned slowly, skewering the offenders with an icy glare that made more than one set of cheekbones redden with embarrassment. J'van idly wondered is she would even recognize that his office had been totally refurbished as he looked with pride at a few displays that were filled with ancient Betazoid hand weapons. As the chime rang, he stood slowly and called out, "Enter!" Rhiannon felt the air move behind her as the doors opened, and remained looking at her victims a moment longer, giving the security chief ample opportunity to take note of her single braid of raven black hair that lay perfectly between her shoulder blades as if stapled there. The breadth of her shoulders tapered slightly to the graceful curves of her back and narrowed to her waist before her curves filled out into a firm, yet rounded derriere which melted into a pair of long, strong legs that seemed made to wrap themselves around a man's hips. She executed a perfect 180 degree StarFleet approved turn before entering the office and waiting for the doors to close behind her. The security officer complimented her entrance with a sharp salute. "Captain," he acknowledged as he gestured to the newly installed replicator. "Can I get you anything?" "Lieutenant," Morrigan acknowledged as she nodded in greeting while looking around her surroundings with more interest. "You've made some... improvements, I see." "Yes, ma'am... the place was rather... drab." He underplayed the statement. Most ship's offices were designed for function not comfort or beauty. "Since I plan to spend the majority of my life here for the time being, I thought it would be good to make it a bit more ... personal." Rhiannon thought for a moment about the sparseness of her ready room. There was nothing in it that StarFleet had not put there. Not a trace or clue of the woman who sat in the Captain's chair. Then again, in order to personalize a living space, one had to have a personal life. She sniffed in an almost disdainful manner. "As long as it is functional ... that's all that matters." "Yes, Ma'am, it most certainly is." Keeping his expression and body language as open and non threatening as possible, he indicated the nice comfy chairs that sat invitingly before his desk. "Please, take a seat if you wish." Morrigan looked at the replicator from where she stood. "Spiced cider ... warm," she ordered as she sat in one of the chairs rather gingerly, making it rather apparent that she was unaccustomed to anything other than StarFleet certified padding under her buttocks. D'nalls sat himself in his high backed leather chair, that looked more like a throne. "So, what can I do for you, Ma'am?" The same knowing grin that he exhibited in sickbay earlier seemed to return to his lips, ever so slightly. "I'm afraid that I have blatantly used you as an excuse to get out of my office, Lieutenant." The events of the last few hours began to play themselves again. Kaelyre's kiss. Asper and Crusher in a romantic moment. Every muscle in her body began to tense as she fought the emotions that she was struggling to suppress. J'van smiled a bit more. "Well, My Captain, you may use me in this way whenever you like. Unlike most of the crew, I am comfortable around you." He stood and walked to the replicator as it finished replicating. Taking the drink from the machine he walked it over to her, his motions indicating a man who was very much at ease with his surroundings and himself. He extended his arms, handing it to her. J'van sensed her reluctance to make bodily contact with him as she took it from his hands, being careful not to touch him. He took his seat again, maintaining an open and inviting air. A faint smile lit Rhiannon's grey eyes. "So... you believe that you are comfortable around me?" She sipped the warm liquid tentatively. "Yes, I do... call it intuition...maybe stupidity, but I do not fear you as most of the others do." He leaned forward slightly. "I learned that fearing a superior vilifies them, and is quite counterproductive." Morrigan arched her eyebrows in appreciation. "Are you always so clinical?" "No, not at all... But, being clinical is a good start, at least until I know my limits... it is far better then going too far." His smile widened warmly. It didn't take a Betazoid to tell that the Captain was on edge. "Lieutenant.... I know you've been on this ship just a short while..." She noticed that he was listening intently. "But security is the pulse of the ship." "Yes, I would have to agree there," he nodded. "For instance... they seem to know all the... gossip." Reluctant to continue, she studied the simple mug in her hands. "They, no... me, yes. Most of my men do not know nearly as much as they seem. And as far as I am concerned, they are on a need to know basis." His tone was reassuring. "What is it that you know about me?" Her eyebrow quirked at the veiled implication. "Facts, or impressions?" He kept the question light so as to not alarm her. "Both." "Alright, well, the fact is your crew seems to fear you. Impression, I see no reason for that, your not nearly as tough as they seem to think." He answered matter of factly. Surprised by his answer, she nearly snorted cider from her nose. "I'm not?" "No, Captain," he explained patiently. "I come from a strong military background, and I was a Marine for 4 years. I find you to be capable, but hardly someone to fear." He could see that she was relaxing, despite herself. "Personally, I find the humor in the situation to be almost too much to bear." "You may think differently if I have reason to admonish you." The softly dangerous contralto chuckle that came with her warning made D'nalls smile again. "Perhaps, but you'll be hard pressed to find a reason to admonish me That much, is a fact. I run a tight ship." "Perhaps I'll have to watch you more closely," she threatened with a voice of cool silk. "Feel free." The quiet confidence to his tone seemed to please her. "Closer scrutiny can only make me look better. Though I must say..." Finally appearing to relax, the Captain sipped at her cider and leaned back against the chair, crossing her legs in front of her. "Go on." "I do find that the crew's... fear... can be a bit... extreme." "And this is bad in what way?" "The chance of revolt." "There are some who do not fear me enough," she thought to herself as a warm tingle crept across her lips, making her uncomfortable. "So.... you think I am too hard on them?" "Their... reluctance... it is a human trait I have found to be troublesome." He stopped to address her question. "Not at all, but, you are seen as the lone person that they fear." Her eyes narrowed as her primary defense systems came online. "Maybe I prefer to be thought of as alone." Well, perhaps that is your way, and you are welcome to it," he turned his tone light at the first sign of defensive attitude. "But I must say, that the Security department does not see you that way anymore. I have worked them hard, and not one of them even considers challenging my authority." He stifled a conspiratory chuckle. "It seems to me that they are sharing the fear." Morrigan smiled once more as the topic turned back to business. "How is it going? Are you making progress?" "Quite well... we are making a lot of progress." It appeared as if a light bulb flashed in his head. "Oh, I should have told you sooner." "Yes?" She questioned with a tilt of her head. "I have installed holoimaging devices in several areas as an augmentation to the internal sensor grid." "In what way will this be effective?" Morrigan did not realize how tense she had been as her muscles began to relax further and ache from the process. She rolls her shoulders and swivels her neck to ease the kinks out more fully. Standing and crossing to a nearby wall, he replied. "Well, it makes the main security office able to monitor a lot more effectively. Unfortunately... it can sometimes inadvertently record images that were not meant for public viewing." He pressed a button on the wall and a large dark wood panel slid away, revealing a bank of monitors, with one large one in the center. She bit hard on her lower lip as the tension returned with a wrenching cramping and what little color she had drained completely from her features. As if he was feeling the sudden flood of tension, J'van looked directly into her eyes. "You may relax, Captain... I am the only one with access to these images." He could see by the defiant tilt of her chin and the look of hard, cold steel that returned to her eyes, that she was not comforted by these words. "Computer, play time index 1242mark 56 on main monitor." Morrigan held his gaze for a moment, before looking as the monitor came to life. It is a view from within a turbo lift. The Captain is there, along with Ensign Kaelyre. Suddenly there is a violent shake, and they grab to keep themselves up. With a voice coated in ice, she orders, "You don't have to go any further." "Computer, pause, delete the next 2 minutes." He pressed a button and the panel slid back into place, as he reseated himself and looked at her expectantly. With cool deliberate motions to mask the trembling fury inside her, Morrigan stood and placed the mug on his desk. "If you are thinking to black mail me... I can assure you I will have you off this ship faster than...." she stopped herself and fell silent. To Be Continued.....