Let me be the third one to echo what my friends and fellow players have already expressed so very well. As a gamesmaster, every time I've had to dismiss a player or watch as one left, I've had to ask myself, "Was there something I could have done to prevent their departure?" In many of these cases, I don't know how much more could have been done. But enough about me. Alexa has been a large part of what we WERE. When Dani and I forged the Astoria, Alexa was there every step to listen to our ideas and provide feedback. The Astoria--and its original crew--were BETTER for it. Her very presence lent a calm and a gravity to the proceedings. I don't think we could have made it past that first year without her, much less the first five missions. So, here we are at a crossroads. Friends, I'm getting sick of losing players...and friends. I might have to say goodbye to Alec and Randi (Qbed and McCaw), as they have both expressed how busy they are. I hate looking back at our roster and seeing the names of people we've known or people we never got a chance to know better: Cutter, Senya, Borran, Banaac, Chen'ki, Stratford, and Rauch. Most of all, I miss Seth (Kye), Chantal (Tails), Natasha (Stark), Dani (Halloran/Vaughn/Caprice) and now, it appears I'll have to say goodbye to Alexa (Droin). It's almost too much to take, sometimes. Do I know how much real life takes away from these activities? Hell yes. In fact, I blame my real life responsibilities for not being able to do more, be better for the Vanguard. But it's looking at these names that causes me to re-commit myself. I don't want any more names on the ex-players roster. I'll try to do everything I can to make sure it doesn't happen. I'm making arrangements even now to try and replace some of those positions. But know that even as I find new players and new friends, the memory and the laughs we've had with all the people above never quite goes away. I don't ever want it to. Best, Andy Ho __________________________________________________ Do you Yahoo!? Yahoo! Web Hosting - establish your business online http://webhosting.yahoo.com ********************************************************** USS Vanguard: http://ncv80221.netfirms.com/default.htm Gamma Fleet: http://gammafleet.startrekrpg.org/ FreeLists: //www.freelists.org Vanguard Archives at Freelists: //www.freelists.org/archives/ncv80221 **********************************************************