OK, suppose you're male and 42, and bringing in let's say 20 mil, got a goddamn palatial place in Westchester and a pad in the Village (that your wife doesn't even know about, although she really does and doesn't care, because she has one too that you don't know about). You have 2 adorable and very, very bright kids who are at -- where? Oh, Christ, wherever the fuck it is that rich kids get shuffled off to now, schools that will insure they'll occupy the same positions when they're 42. You should know the name of the goddamn school, Jesus, what going on here? Early onset? Or is it just too early in the goddamn morning and here you are awake and 42 years old and all you can think of at the moment is that thank God you have not awakened as a cockroach -- now, there's something to celebrate -- though Sheila, your wife of 17 years, no doubt would disagree -- believing you did long ago. But on this particular morning you've not awakened beside your wife, no, but beside your hired your lover in the Village apartment -- her name is, oh fuck, shit, Jesus Christ, come on now, you know this....Corrina! yes, Aha! "Corinna!" you call out. Corinna rises into a sitting position, yawns, stretches, bends and kisses you. She wants to get paid. $1,500. "Is that all that our love means to you?" you say -- jokingly, bur not as sardonically.as one might expect. It's like a part of you really believed it possible that this hooker wanted you, needed you, loved you -- that her moans and groans and shouts were real passion for you. Ah but it was all bought and paid for.-- unless, unless she really was attracted to you....unless love really is possible. You pay her. She rubs the money against her pussy and puts it to your nose. "The sweet smell of success," she says with a broad grin. Then dresses. "Next Tuesday?" You say. She nods with a grin and leaves. You lie there for a long time. Wonder what your wife's life is really like. But you don't have time for that now. The real world is demanding your attention. The markets are in turmoil. Decisions must be made. Money managed. Just try to imagine not having what you have. Mike Geary Wherever, whenever, whyever. .