Hi Clare. Oh thanks for all your love and support and you will always have my love and support to bless you and so will all my lovely friends for sure. OH I agree there's no place like home its lovely getting away but alwyas nice being back in your own surroundings especially I find I get so used to my own bed as well. Ah bless Auntie Purl letting you watch x-factor as well as she isn't in to it and wouldn't watch it again. OH yes baking is fun but eating it the best bit of course I agree there. Well its true pastry making is very tactile so perfect when you can't see. Well I'm glad you both came across the interview of Glen by accident and I'm glad you both enjoyed it. I haven't heard what his speaking voice sounds like now only in his younger days on live recordings and things like that but I'm sure he's lovely bless him. OH yes I'm so happy about home and away being back finally as well. OH I agree about no mails we miss every-one's news but I wouldn't want to come back to all those emails again like last time it would drive me balmy to even though we are all balmy already hahahaha. Well I enjoyed BB and then dear friend Chris phoned us bless him Mrs Villa has himi going there for the week-end and because of my week-end away being ruined she has invited me to bless her she's a true friend for sure and I would do the same for any of my friends who were feeling low. AS well as going to Kent on Saturday with Jamie its next WEdnesday we were meant to be going to Waymouth and he knows how long I have yearned for the sea as I haven't seen enough of the sea this year so if he's letting me down over that to I will never ever forgive him for havign ruined the two days away I aws really looking forward to as well as tearing my heart out. I wish i had some-[one to cuddle up to me and keep me warm on these cold Winter nights. OH all that talk about Vanessa and the flowers I must admit I felt a bit down when I read that because Jamie never did that for me he never said what Malcolm said about Vanessa that he was proud to be seen out with me or said I was amazing or inspirational I wish he had been more like Malcolm and our lovely mucky duck 2 so lovely and expressive. I said to Jamie the other day that I've 'got lots of friends on the chat list who look out for me and he said why they don't even know you and I said I might not have met them but at least they know what women want and need. I've tried telling him many times but he never takes any notice. I do miss Jamie and will do for a while I know its not the same as when some-one close to us has died but its still a sort of grieving process because looking forward to seeing him was somethign that always kept me going and getting calls from him and the odd thing on the chat list as well. Well I have a nice day with Kate again tomorrow not sure where Karen is as its the third time she hasn't been there but it iwll be nice to get out and it will cheer me up and in the evening we have folk club again. Well I look forward to hearing about your time at Janet's blind club as usual. Take care and speak to you soon. Lots of love and big hugs I sure need them at the moment. Love Sarah xxxxxx