Good morning all wow had great sleep not had good sleep for ages cool yea Oh vanessa you mae me laugh about my paper knickers or cardboard ones hahahahahahahahaha hope you can embossed them and use your altimate pro on them perhaps glitter too weill wear them on visit to 10 downing street hahahahahahahahahaha Oh nice you sent our veiws to Geri G.E.R.I. that is how her name spelt i put Jerry silly me. Vanessa oh yes you should really write your life story get it published in braille formate by R.N.I.B. oh definately you could . you could call title I am getting no where or maybe my living hell somthing like that oh be good if you wrote your life story January let me tell you somthing here now wehn i went totally blind I wanted to do away with myself and just forget it all but God lifted me up and said No there is more to life them being depressed you can get through it with my help and my god he was spot on look at me now can use lap top learnt a lot dress up smart look after myself go out got hobbies ok its not what I want but can't turn clock back even if I wanted too. So god is making move on go forward look forward to my future ok its not brilliant outside there in this world but lovely stuff outt there still We have to search for our happiness and love if you really really want a life outside them 4 walls you have to pay for it. This is why I pay for a carer 15 hours a week and believe me every penny is worth it my life has turned around now for the better Most of my friends say to me Oh don't waste your money put in bank I turn round and say hey what good is it in bank stacked up very high only for the trust to take if off you when your dead and buried. I said I want to enjoy my money while still alive its mine . I am not getting any younger now just over 50 so want to do much as I can while I am abled to do that. I prefer to pay for carer to me its worth it as gets me out of these 4 boring walls I love it money well spent I say just thought I would share that right going now carer due at 10 30am going to have all my mop chopped off then be able to see you all on screen hahahahahahahaha you all can give me a wave then right love Carol xxxx