Good morning our cheeky boy on here. Thank you for your kind words on here to us all. I got friends who lost dogs took them months Darran,but the main thing is,yu treasure your love that you both had together while it lasted. Darran,its very hard I know but please try get your self together love because if you don't you could be waiting very long time for new Guide dog and the longer your waiting the more you become house bound we don't want that. When I first went totally blind my depression made me stay in for whole 18 months yes,that is right very frighteneing but I knew if I didn't make a move nobody els weill at the end of the day it was up to me. Somthing inside me snapped and said right come on Carol stop getting depressed make move or be depressed for rest of your life. so after that social services got me in day centre for 4 years wow I was terrified but felt better when my boyfriend Eric came their he held my hands on the mini bus we all got on and inside the building. it was huge day centre Called Frank taylor centre it used to bee little primary school. the hall and stage was still their class rooms were turned in to offices guess what after 6 month in their I got to love it so mum was thrilled at that time that I got all my confidence back once again it became she couldn't keep me in wow Oh that Frank taylor centre was the best thing that ever happened to me. Staff their gave me long cane traning wow took for ever believe me. did it in the end though very lot of help lots of staff in their Then we had craft room wow can't tell you how excited I was with that. we made baskets in their where you have to wet the canes if yu know what I mean twist them make trays big job. In one corner old ladies were all knitting in another corner disabled men were painting some had learning difficulties ah bless them painting very childish painting but they were so happy. I could see shadows then and bright red and white so lucky then it was in year 1990 went blind in 1989 still had light and dark but shadows then we all had craft room on monday Tuesday it was meeting Wednesday games day friday mobility lessons so yes in their 5 days a week. 9.30am to 3pm by time mini bus dropped us off i was home for gone just after 4.15pm We had barbecues in their huge garden and had christmas parties in their lots of people in wheelchairs. blind in their men and ladies got age of a 5 years old some had no limbs one in wheelchair had no legs loved painting. one had no arms in wheelchair but loved chatting all the time some on cruches some ladies in their 50's got excited like children they were so happy it was just a wonderful centre till the council decided to close it all down everybody was all upset we campagned and got mps on to it posters to save our centre but no they closed it now car park guess what all them that were in weelchairs all went back in to their depression again they were all building new life in their Thought I would share that with you life at the end of tunnel Darran you have to reach out for that light and say Right that is it going to get on with my life take care Carol xxxx