Paul, I enjoyed reading a very personal side of your walk through life. I don't suppose you've considered that God said yes to your request each and every time you prayed it and that the events in your life, including your current state of disbelief, are all leading up to the fullfillment of your prayer. Since you've shared a personal glimpse, I'm moved to do the same. I too was a christian from a very young age, so young I don't quite recall the event. I have spent most of my life believing in God, but staying very far away from him, at least publically and in studing about him, I've always "talked" and prayed to God. I had always maintained a creationist perspective, but being surrounded by evolutionary thinking and other non-Christian religious attitudes, I was afraid to seriously look at the differences for fear that I would find I was so obviously wrong. For most of my life my most fervent prayer has been "to show me the truth in all things". A very hard thing for God to accomplish in an individual not really looking. A few years back something happened in my life which made me decide I needed get over my problems, face reality and see what was true. This lead me (among other things) to reading whatever I could from creationist and evolutionist positions, with most emphasis on exchanges between them (what did one say about the other and how did one answer the other). It did not take long for me to see that scientifically speaking, evolutionists were playing games in order to produce their "overwhelming evidence". This and other searching, in the midst of no-one around me believing as I did, has only lead me to strengthen my Christian beliefs - seemingly quite the opposite of what happened to you. JA. Paul Deema <paul_deema@xxxxxxxxxxx> wrote: Jack L When I was 53, I had been a believing christian for about 47 years. The prayer I recall most often making -- with ever increasing urgency -- was "God -- make my faith strong." Clearly for all those years it was not strong and God seemed disinclined to help me remedy that failing. Finally, an event occurred which served to separate me from the practice of my religion and faith ebbed rapidly when I was removed from constant reinforcement. With time I saw the reality -- "Faith is what allows us to believe what we know is not possible". Paul D --------------------------------- Sick of deleting your inbox? Yahoo!7 Mail has free unlimited storage. Get it now. --------------------------------- Shape Yahoo! in your own image. Join our Network Research Panel today!