Oh Karen. I am in tears reading this! I am so sorry! If there is anything I can do please let me know. Cindy and Mesa who sends labby kisses to Karen ----- Original Message ----- From: "metnme2" <metnme2@xxxxxxxxx> To: "Vi-Clicker" <vi-clicker-trainers@xxxxxxxxxxxxx> Sent: Wednesday, September 12, 2007 12:30 AM Subject: (VICT) Chimette: AKA Met December 4, 1996 - September 10, 2007 > It is with an enormous amount of greif that words > could never fully contain that I let you all know that > Met is free. I sat here last night and wrote an > extensively long email to the epilepsy lists where we > were a part of the community there since 1998 but then > the shock and numbness wore off and try as I might > today I have not been able to duplicate for you the > way Met has touched my life. > Chimette was that one dog in few who despite not > seeming right initially for public access work, not > only proved me and many people so completely wrong but > did so in the grandest of ways. > In the early days, weeks, and months we considered him > my little disaster. Smile > But that little disaster changed my life in ways I > could never begin to portray completely to all of you. > He was adopted to be trained as a hearing dog but no > sooner had I decided he did not have what it would > take for public access then he began to change in > amazing ways- he began to blossom, began to take on > the world and above all began to do some of those > amazing > life saving things. He took me from someone who was > merely existing rather than living and showed me the > beauty that life had to offer. He brought me out of my > shell and gave me back a side of adventure, > determination, and independence. As my disabilities > progressed he became not only a full fledged hearing > and service dog with public access rights, but he took > on the role of my guide. There could never be a better > more intune dog as Met has been to me and all my > numerous needs. > Last month when Met stepped out of harness but still > wanted to be my service and hearing dog, I had no idea > that in a months time he would be stepping out of life > itself. This is such a scary uncertain time for me- > losing my combo trained service dog has me uncertain > how I am going to make it, but I love Met way too much > to have made him live in the condition his body had > faltered to. > Many of you know that Met was a special needs service > dog... that is one with his own problems. Epilepsy did > not take Chimette from me. In fact he had > been seizure free since November 6, 2003 (almost 4 > years)He remained seizure free through surgery in 2006 > a big feat IMO, through the horrendous effects on his > weak blood brain barrier which was somehow > re-triggered this past summer and even through the > complete removal of his meds 4 days ago to give him > the peace he needed from the torment his body was > going through. Met had severe spondylosis where his > lumbar and sacral areas were evidently fusing together > and was in horrid pain that could not be stopped. I > was told that spondylosis in canines was not usually > problematic, but then Met was not a pet and Met does > not have a habit of doing anything the *usual* way. He > also had some serious issue going on that > affected him with horrid anxiety, frenzy type behavior > that followed the consumption of > all meds and food until we pulled his meds and > supplements for good a few days before his death. A > risky venture, but a necessary one. Since Monday Met's > system just really began shutting down. His hearing > was failing him and he was downright terrified at > times by the changes going on. His kidneys were also > failing fast. > On Tuesday I told him it was time to rest- that he had > been the bestest service dog I could have ever asked > for and that I would be OK. He separated himself from > me more and more as the days progressed, no more > petting, no more walks, a level of confusion that just > broke my heart. > Yesterday with the help of his vet who returned from > vacation that day, we set Met free in the side yard at > my folks place where he so often loved to run and play > and show us how rapidly he could water all moms > plants. > Though I know it was his time, it does not make this > journey I have travelled these last couple weeks > especially an easy one. He will always and forever be > in my heart, be my sidekick. He has taught me so much > about life, about animal health and above all about > not taking veterinary information at face value. Any > vet who had the experience of caring for my special > man, came away with a vast amount of knowledge that > you won't find in any veterinary manual. > Gosh my heart hurts so badly- I am so numb and I feel > so lost... There was nothing anyone could have done to > stop this from happening. We know they are going to > die some day, but we just never expect it this way... > people have questioned with me today if he could have > gotten ahold of anything out of China but honestly I > don't think that was the case- at least not in terms > of food though I know we had struggled the last months > to find a good solution for him. Supplements though is > a topic that has me wondering... who knows though? I > can't beat myself up over this. > Met never got the genetic cancer that was uncovered in > his family history when he was about 4 years old which > truly terrified me. It sent much of his > family to early graves. Tonight I imagine him with all > his family, with his girlfriend and with my special > tiels who went before him. This loss is just so > unbelievable! > Run free baby boy with your full lucious coat and the > ability to jump and twist and tumble without feeling > anything but pure joy! > Momma loves you > > Karyn and Angel Chimette > *We Treasured the Moments*