[tri-wings] Re: tri-wings Digest V8 #43

kathyrn,
i have not been around for a few days, so this is late.

i am so happy to hear about the butterfly!  the small things in life really 
are the most significant it seems. i am thinking of you, rebecca and your 
family as the journey carries on.

you said you feel acceptance of rebecca's absense.  what does that feel 
like? is it an absence of daily pain and loss? i certainly feel the longing 
you mentioned.

two weeks ago my sister had her first baby, jackson.  i am ashamed to say 
that the last three months of her pregnacy i could not be with her because 
we knew she was having a boy.  it was a combination of fear and pain on my 
part i think. i was so afraid for them i could not function around them.  my 
sister and i are close and i think this was selfish of me.  i thought of 
calling her every day but could not.  i made myself sick over it. i guess 
this means i am not at the acceptance level yet.  i did not mean to write 
about myself, but it all came out so i guess it must matter.  looking for 
input/understanding/comments or reassurance, something i guess, from people 
i know have been where i am.  most people in my life just don't understand 
how any of this feels.

pam, mum to t 13 angel tyler, kira- almost 6, abbey- almost 2
living in the  snow drift other wise known as canada 

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