[tri-wings] stress stuff-sheila

sorry for poking my nose in (wait-no, i am not), but i saw the chat you were 
having with tracey.  could it be anxiety? it can be totally debilitating. 
it is awful.

 i have had anxiety attacks on and off for years.  when we lost our 
beautiful tyler i had one that made me so afraid i went to the emerg.  i 
thought i was going to die.  i had chest pain, indigestion, vertigo, you 
name it.  i got our poor freaked out 83 year old neighbour to drive me to 
the hospital.  if wilf had not been an ex serviceman, ww2 vet he would have 
been frightened i am sure.  i was jabbering on about how will my poor 
husband manage, having lost his parents, aunt and son within three years, 
now his wife.  anyway, i was fine in a short time.

i am a great believer in sharing my "crazies" with other people.  it is so 
important to help dispell the stigma surronding mental health issues. my 
anxiety has deep roots in my past and i am always having to be mindful of 
how i react and monitoring myself for signs of  slipping into depression.  i 
have a presciption for clonazepam for the days when i can't step back and 
stop the anxiety. yoga helps a lot, it brings the focus back to what i need 
to attend to.  if you can't do yoga, some of the breathing techniques work 
very well alone, kind of like biofeedback.  another thing i learned that 
helps is a social work saying or philosphy- all people are in the "process 
of becoming".  myself, i am in the process of becoming the person i choose 
to be, not the one my crappy stepfather tried to make me, or the one society 
wants me to be.

i hope you find the answers you need.  your current situation sounds 
uncomfortable and stressful.  sounds like you recognize your triggers and 
that is a big deal.  you deserve to be healthy, happy and enjoying your 
life.  my nose is now out of your business, except for the cyberhugs. 
{{shelia}}.
with love,

pam, darrell, t13 angel tyler, kira 4.5, abbey 7 months
salem ontario 

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