[tri-wings] small vent

I have been having some sad feelings lately and feel a need to vent.  I think 
everyone here will understand, but I hope that I am not overstepping my 
boundaries, Nancy.  As some of you know, Nancy's Analee is Mike and I's niece.  
She was 18 mos. older than Morgan.  She was a precious reminder to us, when I 
was pregnant with Morgan, that we might get to have time with him.  Well, 
lately I have been thinking about her alot and feeling guilty about not 
spending more time with her (not that we really had the opportunity).  I 
realized last night that it isn't guilt that I am feeling, but rather a sense 
of not having any closure.  We never saw Analee for the last two years of her 
life.  We did not know she had been adopted.  There were so many family 
functions where I was disappointed she wasn't there, but never dreamed she 
wasn't in the family anymore.  I am so sad that we never took any pictures of 
her and Morgan together.  I wish I could have seen her one last time and told 
her so many things.  If I had known she was with Nancy we would have made an 
effort to see her before it was too late.  I know all these circumstances were 
out of our hands, but the feelings are still there.  

?You have no right to argue with your Creator. You are merely a clay pot shaped 
by a potter. 
The clay doesn?t ask, ?Why did you make me this way??? (Isaiah 45:9 CEV).


Holly ( Des Moines, IA) -- wife of Mike 
mom of Morgan (11 yrs. old) unbalanced translocation resulting in partial t18q 
and partial monosomy 9p 
dx'd with type 1 diabetes 03-17-08, enjoying the honeymoon--injecting levemir 
twice daily,novolog


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