[tri-wings] Re: my birthday


Lesa,
I can relate somewhat to your feelings on your birthday.  My Brandon was
born on July 10, and passed away on August 8.  My birthday is July 30.  I
have very mixed feelings around the time of my birthday.  So much was
happening in my life.  One good thing that did happen on my birthday was
that Brandon was transferred back to our hometown hospital.  For the first 3
weeks of his life, he was in a hospital 2 hours away, which was very
difficult, especially with a 19-month old at home.  So I always try to
remember that my birthday was when he came "home".  Also, now I have a
sister-in-law who is expecting a baby on August 11.  I keep thinking, what
if they have their baby on August 8?  It's been such a sad day for us and
their baby deserves to have everyone happy on it's birthday.  I guess it is
a special day too, because my baby became an angel.  But you can't help
being sad on that day.  I hope and pray you have a beautiful dream of your
Simon in heaven on your birthday, so that you can always remember that.  I
love the idea of dreaming of our angels in heaven.  I can't say I've ever
had such a dream, but I would love to.  May your birthday dream come to you.
                            Shelly (mommy to Brandon,7/10/92-8/8/92,T18)
----- Original Message -----
From: "LESA KLING" <daltonprice@xxxxxxxxxxxxx>
To: "Tri-Wings" <Tri-Wings@xxxxxxxxxxxxx>
Sent: Monday, March 25, 2002 6:00 PM
Subject: [tri-wings] my birthday


>
>
> Some one in here posted recently about Therapy 2.  Well this has really
got
> me thinking.  I posted to all of you what I would do if I had 24 hours
with
> my Simon about seeing him in a dream.  My birthday is this Thursday and if
I
> could have ANYTHING this year it would be to dream of Simon in heaven.  I
> have not had a single dream of him yet.  I miss him so much.  I really
hate
> my birthdays anymore.  Every year for the past 6 years something tragic
has
> taken place on or very close to it.  This year is the worst by far Losing
> himjust last month.  Guess it is silly for me to expect a birthday to be
fun
> because I am going to be 38, but you know it is the only day we can truly
> call our own.  I just wish I could have some peace for a change on this
day.
>   God gave me such a wonderful gift by blessing me with Simon.  I prayed
to
> hold him alive and have the chance to share him with family and the
church.
> I got that and so much more which is more than many get with a trisomy
> child.  But now I am asking God for just one more thing with my Simon.  I
> askhim to let me see him in my sleep for my birthday.  I need to feel
Simon
> again.  I need to touch him or to just see how happy he is.  You see I
> already know he is happy, but I want to dream of it.  So I guess what I am
> asking of all of you is to please pray for this on my behalf.  It is all I
> want for my birthday.  A big request I know, but I so much ache for it.  I
> realize many do not dream of their precious little ones that have passed
for
> quite some time.  But as I said, it is my birthday.  I really am dreading
> it.  I need it to be special for a change.   Please Lord, I ask you to
allow
> me to dream of Simon.  If I can not see him, I ask you to allow me to feel
> his presence somehow.  Just let me feel how at peace he is and let me tell
> him mommy loves him just once more.  Thank you Father.     Lesa   ---
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