[tri-wings] Re: made it

 
  LESA KLING <daltonprice@xxxxxxxxxxxxx> wrote: 


>>I went to Simons grave today and
just sat there for a while and talked to him. I guess he could not hear me,
but felt good to just let myself go for a few.<<<

 

Ohhhhh Lesa, Simon could hear you and he knows exactly what you said to him.He 
doesnt lie beneath the plot of earth that you visit, he is forever in your 
heart and everywhere you go ,he is right there with you .

 

>> I did not get the dream I so
desperately wanted of him in heaven. Instead, I dreamed of me in a
graveyardsearching and digging through all the grass for his tombstone. 
Veryweird. Very empty feeling when I awoke. <<

I'm sorry you didnt get to dream the dream you wanted and when you first posted 
the mail about what you would like for your birthday ,I almost shared the first 
few dreams I had but thought better of it.Now you have experienced the "bad" 
side then let me tell you ,you are not alone sweetheart and you certainly are 
not losing your mind.The first dreams I ever had of my angels, I was holding 
Gareth but when I looked down his face was replaced with the teddy arrangement 
we had placed on his grave .I thought it was maybe a side effect of the 
sleeping pills but then not long after losing Dominic, I dreamt that we had all 
been invited to a house for dinner and when me  and the kids arrrived,(funny 
Steve wasnt there but he shut out the boys memory anyhow so maybe thats why he 
wasnt in the dream or maybe it was a fore runner as to him leaving our lives I 
do not know) the house belonged to Dominic and he was an adult but Gareth wasnt 
there and Dominic told me he couldnt find him.It was truly horrible and this 
time I was taking no pills....It  stayed with me a long time and eventually I 
did get to dream happy dreams of my boys but havent had one for some time now.

They tend very much to give me angel tinks rather than dreams and maybe thats 
how Simon will touch you.

I hope and pray that the next time will be much more the dream you 
want.....Simon knows how you feel and I'm sure he will be doing his best to tug 
on God's robes and say "hey thats my mummy and she needs to dream of 
me...please make it possible for her"

big hugs



Mandy , mum to Matthew 9,Charlotte 8, and my two angels Gareth (t18 ^i^ Nov 
14th'99) and Dominic (cystic hygroma ^i^ July 23 '00)     England .UK .

www.geocities.com/baby2angels2000

We don't stop playing because we grow old; we grow old because we stop playing.
- George Bernard Shaw






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