[tri-wings] Re: life is moving on

Mandy wrote:
---Once it was normal to smile at every single newborn, now its
normal to smile whilost holding back the tears.Once it was normal to be
jumping for joy when your best friend announced her pregnancy ,now its
normal to want to choke the living daylights from her! (ok maybe thats just
me )
No Mandy it is not just you. My sister has had 2 beautiful children since I 
had Leslie and I tried to be the good sister and be all happy and stuff, but 
I was so mad at her that I could have smacked her. When she had Christian, 
the youngest who is now 5 months old, she had told me that he was an oops, 
but I found out later that she lied to me and he was planned. It didn't 
matter to me if he was Planned or not, she shouldn't have lied. She said she 
was trying to keep from hurting my feelings since she has known that I have 
been trying to have another baby for 6+ years. I have also had several 
friends who have gotten pregnant and it is very hard. They'll say things 
(unintensional I hope) like "when you're a Mom" or things like that...and I 
just want to yell, I am a Mom, just because my daughter isn't here doesn't 
make me less of a Mom than you, but I just sit there and bite my tongue. I 
have also found out in the past few days, that my husband doesn't really 
want to have children (for those of you who don't know the story my husband 
is not Leslie's dad.) So I now feel like I have wasted the past 6 years of 
my life with someone who knew when they married me that I wanted to have a 
family and now I am being denied that. I am trying to decide if I should 
stay and just settle for not having another baby, or if I should leave and 
find someone who wants to have a family.
Ok sorry to ramble, I just needed to vent for a second.
Stacey
Mommy to an Angel
^i^ Leslie Serina ^i^
Trisomy 9  11-20-96
http://www.geocities.com/staceyfolkner/LeslieSerina.html
----- Original Message ----- 
From: "Mandy" <baby2angels2000@xxxxxxxxxxx>




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