[tri-wings] Re: just need to share(Leslie)

The funny thing is I don't want to leave. I scared of more changes right now. 
I mean it really scares me, to think about moving, and leaving all the 
memories that are here. You know what I mean? But on the flip side, I don't 
know how 
much more I can take. He acts like the world just Poo-poo on him and life is 
horrible and so is God. He doesn't believe in Jesus or anything to do with 
faith. God help me make the right decision. He pick a fight with me last night. 
I 
was in a great mood, the first since Gabby passed. I felt great tried to be 
nice and do everything I could to help him with house work and stuff. Well, of 
course here goes the mean tones in his voice and the hateful looks. Like 
everything I do is wrong or something. He always puts me down in his own way. I 
think to make him feel better. I'm starting to hate being around him, he makes 
me 
uncomfortable and that I'm stupid, no matter that I'm four years older then 
him. and I have a college degree, I work at a very good job around this area. I 
don't know what to do. I want to leave but, I don't. I don't know why I stay, 
He's never even here. I had to call in the work today because we found until 
3:ooam.this morning. I have to be at work at 7:30. Of course no "I sorry" he 
just left for work. he also broke my cell phone and my glasses so, now I have 
no phone and I can't see anything without my glasses. I'm just stupid for 
staying here. 

Ambre: Mother to Gage(9) & Gabriella T-13 full: 10/6/04-12/1/04


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