[tri-wings] Re: just need to share

I totally know how your are feeling, yesterday before going to work I was 
telling someone about Brendan and started to cry, I cried all the way to work . 
 I stopped crying before I went into the store but as soon as someone asked  me 
if I was okay I started gcrying all over again.  I work with some really great 
people and got hugs all around. I really wanted to go home and crawl into bed, 
but was waiting for someone to tell me to go home.  They didn't but that was 
better I didn't need to be home, I needed to be out helping other although it 
was just customers.  
 
Mikki (Michelle)Rooney, wife to John (11 Years)
Mom to Michael(10), Caitlin(8), Siobhan(4)and
Brendan Full T-13 (3)
 
 
-----Original Message-----
From: pam&darrell <bifman@xxxxxxxxxxxx>
To: tri-wings@xxxxxxxxxxxxx
Sent: Tue, 29 Mar 2005 13:01:45 -0500
Subject: [tri-wings] just need to share

today i had a rotten experience.  i have a picture (digital) of tyler with my 
father in law that i wanted to have printed.  my f-i-l is very ill with cancer 
and is soon moving into palliative care.  i feel that he will be going to see 
tyler soon, so it really feels important to me to give this picture to ray.  i 
went to the supermarket and started to try and print my stuff.  a guy beside me 
was doing the same at the next machine.  he was just being nice and said oh, 
new 
baby?  i freaked.  i started crying and said no, he died.  then i fled the 
store 
crying .  so much for getting groceries or a picture today.  i left to get my 
husband who was getting bloodwork done.  i went into the lab wailing.  this 
made 
many people uncomfortable.  a lady heard me telling darrell what had happened.  
she came over, gave me a kleenex and asked if i was ok.  she told me her 
brother 
had lost a child and hugged me.  strange day.  finding someone who took the 
time 
to help me was truly wonderful, b
 ut crap, when does it end?  i want to be me again, to feel joy, be able to 
focus, think and feel.  live in the moment.  i miss all of these things, but 
not 
as much as i miss my little guy.
thanks for listening.
pam, mum to t 13 angel tyler
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