[tri-wings] good grief!

I had to take a break from my daily attempt at moving on without Karly.? I've 
been trying to use the time and energy I spent caring for her on meaningful, 
productive things.? All morning I have been sorting through mail and other 
paperwork that's accumulated while I had better things to do (play with her).? 
Now I am being taunted by the notebook in the corner, the one started while we 
were still in the NICU, the one we've kept all her important papers in.? It's 
taunting me because it was so important and now suddenly, it seems that it no 
longer has a purpose.? Keeping it seems pointless but the thought of getting 
rid of it makes me sad right now.? I don't even understand why really.? I know 
it is not her or a peice of her or something I even liked when I still had her 
here but the idea of letting it go seems wrong.? I suppose it would make things 
more "official", like admitting to myself that she's not going to be back,?like 
the death certificate I will be going to pick up th
 is afternoon.? Strangely, that seems like something I want to do.? Maybe once 
I see the certificate it will be less daunting to think of clearing away the 
paperwork.? 
Does anyone else remember this part of the grief?? Any advice or encouraging 
words?? 

Kristy
mom to Kendra,11; Kayne, 9; Kristian, 3; and Karly, my angel at 9 mos. and 10 
days


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