[tri-wings] Re: first anniversary

 
Hi Mikki, 

I am so very sorry for your loss of Brendan. I am new to the group. My
daughter had t13 too.(May25-Aug12, 2005) I sent an email about siblings.
Maybe we can discuss that. 

Sometimes, I think about the sorrow that all of this causes. It is so hard,
but I tell myself that the gift of our sweet Annie's life was not meant to
make us sad and miserable for a life time. And yet, I want to be sad, and
angry, and miserable. I'lll go so far as to say it feels good to feel that
way.  I would bel guilty to feel otherwise. I don't know how to come to
termswith this, but  there must be a way. 

I have been thinking the situation is analagous to being given a huge
bouquetof the most beautiful flowers. But one of them, just as beautiful as
the rest, wilts and dies for some inexplicable reason. Should I dwell on
thatto the extent of missing out on the enjoyment of the rest of those
beautiful flowers? I tell myself that if I do, one day I will give up on
finding why that one flower died, because the reasons were never for me to
know anyway, and look around only to find that the other flowers have wilted
and faded, and I missed their beauty. 

It is easy to say, hard to do. I will think of you and prayer for your
familyon this sad anniversary. 

Hope to get to know you better. 

Barb 



  
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From:  <mcs811@xxxxxxxxxxx>
Reply-To:  tri-wings@xxxxxxxxxxxxx
To:  tri-wings@xxxxxxxxxxxxx, tri-family@xxxxxxxxxxxxx
Subject:  [tri-wings] first anniversary
Date:  Thu, 26 Jan 2006 08:13:28 -0600 (CST)
Hi all,

Sorry I have not posted much in the last few months, as I am sure for all of
you, christmas was very hard for us.  Both John and I were not in the
christmas spirit and dreaded going shopping for presents for the kids. 
Michael was being very difficult too.  He was feeling the same way John and
Iwere.  things have gotten a bit better once we pasted the holidays. I am
sorry I didn't get a chance to send out all the cards I had wanted to, but I
wanted to thank you all who did send a card.

Yesterday was the first anniversary, and it wasn't as bad as I had
anticipated.  I got up and took the girls to school and went to work.  When
Igot home there were flowers waiting here from my mom and sister, both
waiting to say that they were thinking of our family and Brendan.  John's
momand sister also called to express the same feelings.  Michael forgot what
day it was and kind of felt left out.  On the whole I think it went well.

Anyway, things have been a bit tough here,  John has been out of work since
september, although he is working a side job and making enough for us to
live, they don't expect him to go back to work for another 3 to 4 months. 
unemployment run out before then and medical runs out at 39 weeks.  I am
hoping he has a job before that.  John's mom's cancer came back from her
boutwith it 2 years ago and it has spread to her stomach lining, chest and
lymph nodes.  She has started back on the chemo and is doing okay.  John's
father is not in great health either but they don't talk about it much.

I am still working my 2 part time jobs and moving along well.  I have lots
todo with the girl scout although do not have a troop this year.

Michael got honor the first marking period and we are so proud of him, he
kind of dropped of the second one but with the holidays I understand.  He
hadhis first concert of the year, he plays the trumpet, they did very well.

Caitlin is doing okay in fourth grade she has had so ups and downs, but
things are getting better for her at school.  Fourth grade is hard because
ofthe state testing, they spend most of the year practicing for the tests. 
She wanted to play the violin but has recently changed to the celo.  I am
waiting to see how that goes.

Siobhan has started kindergarden and is the smartest in her class, not
reallybut I like to think so, she is reading already and writing short
stories.  She turned 6 in january and has lost 8 teeth, 6 are still missing
with 4 of them on the top.

I think that kinds of cover everything. I will try not to be gone for long
again.

Mikki (Michelle) Rooney  wife to John (12 yrs)
Mom to Michael (11) who is sporting a mohawk for the day, Caitlin (9) who
needs a bra but wont wear one, Siobhan (6) who doesn't need a bra but
wearingone and clip on earings and Our Angel Brendan (t-13) ( 08/02/01 -
01/25/05)



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