[tri-wings] UGH - will this ever get better?

I just left a meeting at work just as I was about to start sobbing.  Part of
my job is to work on the OB-GYN electronic medical record - which I didn't
think I would be able to work on again after I delivered Grace, but it truly
has been fine.  The other part of my job is to create this database where
people in our hospital keep track of any disclosures of protected health
information (because of a recent Federal law that started in April).  This
part has also been fine until today.  We had to meet with the birth
certificate folks to discuss whether they were going to be entering a record
under mom and the baby, baby only or mom only.  Well, during this
conversation they started talking about when a birth certificate would not
been done - and how they don't do one if the baby is still born and they
don't do one if the baby was only a certain amount of weeks along, etc.  For
those of you that don't know...I wasn't able to do a birth or death
certificate for Grace (which means I couldn't legally name her) because I
was only 17 weeks along and they don't do either certificate in Texas until
the baby is 20+ weeks.  Which of course made me feel like no one considered
her a real baby.
 

Oh my goodness...I started to feel this heat in my body that started at my
toes and started rising through my body.  I finally just got up, grabbed my
pager and left the room.  Then sobbed all the way back to my desk.  Then of
course, I felt like I was totally unprofessional and probably made everyone
in the meeting feel terrible or uncomfortable for the discussion (most
everyone in there knew about my recent loss).  

 

On a good note...had this have been a week and a half ago, when my post
partum blues were riding high, I probably wouldn't have made it out of the
room before I started sobbing.  Fortunately, my OB GYN doc prescribed a 3
week supply of "happy" pills and I have been feeling a little better.
UGH...will this ever get better???

 

Brenda, wife to Rich, mommy to Matthew Alexander (20 months) and Grace
Alexandra (^i^ 8/31/03) T-13  

 

 



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