[tri-wings] Tyler

Let me introduce myself.

I am Erin and I recently lost my baby on March 3, 2006.  Here is my story,
hopefully short. In december at our 20 week u/s they noticed markers for
t-18.  So, they sent us to a level 2 u/s and perinatologist.  It was
confirmed via amnio that our baby Tyler has T-18.  Tyler was due April 23,
2006.  On February 28th, 2006 I went in for regular check up and I had
developed Pregnancy induced hypertension.  Almost overnight.  My blood
pressure has risen slowly over the previous 2 months but not enough for the
doctors to catch it I guess.  Over night it skyrocketed.  Within the next
day or so I developed preeclampsia and my blood pressure was 170/110 or so.
I was put on blood pressure meds and then an IV of magnesium sulfate.  I was
almost 33 weeks.  It was the worst thing ever in my life.  I felt like i was
dieing.  The magnesium is terrible.  I guess the doctors thought it would be
best for us to induce for my health.  They had to weigh my health over the
baby's, especially because he had T-18.  I had a really hard time trying to
figure out if I really needed to induce or not.  I know that because my baby
had T-18 that they wouldnt considered him at all.  They would put a high
priority on me and my health.   I still dont know.  I think if Tyler would
have been healthy they would have kept me on the mangesium for a few weeks
to try and get Tyler a little older. But since his chance of living was so
slim already they suggested we induce because my kidneys were starting to be
affected.  We induced on March 2nd and Tyler was born  March 3, 2006 at
4:01am.  He died sometime during delivery.  I dont know when because I chose
no hearttone monitoring.  I didnt want to know that he passed and then have
to deliver him.  I just thought that would be too tramatic for us.
Sometimes I wonder if I made the right decisions.  Did I have to induce?
Maybe it would be nice to know exaclty when he passed away.
My sister is a naturpathic doctor and almost done with her certification to
be a midwife too.  So, she was there for me.  She said she thinks we
probably had to induce also.  She said that since Tyler just didnt have much
of a chance of living because of T-18 that risking my health was not worth
it.

Anyhow, I know these are all parts of the grieving process. You question
everything.
I am just begining this journey of healing.

Erin
Mother to Tyler Joel 3/3/06 t-18 born to heaven

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