[tri-wings] Re: This is me

On Tuesday, October 29, 2002 9:23 AM, Derwent Valley TSSC 
[SMTP:ao@xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx] wrote:
> Let me apologise first off, I'm going to ramble.


First off - DO NOT APOLOGIZE!  This is the purpose of this list.  I feel so 
bad for you.  I can relate to the nawing pain of missing our angels, but I 
can not relate to the guilty feelings that you have involving Twinkle.  I 
do know that when I was pregnant with Jake I had so much fear that I was 
not going to be able to love him as much as I love Nicole.  I cried when he 
was born, because I was so overwhelmed and had no idea where the love would 
come from (besides that he was fat and ugly!LOL)  But within hours I fell 
so inlove with that fat little chub I quickly learned how to love my two 
children - it comes naturally, just like your love for Abi, this too will 
be there.  You are afraid to let yourself be open to that hurt again, but 
if you look deep in your heart - the love is there for both of your 
children and Abi knows that you love Twinkle too and it's ok.  Just because 
you love one child, it doesn't diminish the love for another.  Maybe a 
medium (I assume this is a therapist) would be the way to go.  A friend of 
mine, the one that lost her 22 year old son, went to a grief therapist and 
said it was amazing.  Though she still has a long way to go, she said she 
doesn't know how she would have gotten to this point.  She had considered 
suicide, but now is well past that and she credits the therepist.

Please know that you have alot of friends here that love you and will 
listen anytime you want to ramble.  I really hope the rainbow comes out 
soon.
(((((((Pete)))))))
lotsoflove
Deanna~~~
wife to Mike, Mom to Nicole 14, Jake 10 and Jessica (our precious T18 
angel) 5/04/02
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