[tri-wings] Re: Sheila,

Sheila,
Thanks it was needed that is for sure. 
I left work at 1pm to go get roses for him and was upset cause they
didn't have baby blue so I got three white ones.  I picked Anthony up
from school (was late my poor baby was upset) so of course on top of the
fact that I was already upset I lost it. We got home and got ready to go
the whole ride to the cemetery I was quiet and started remembering poor
Christian.  You know did really good these past few days as long as I
was busy, but the minute I started thinking I got emotional. As soon as
we got to his grave and placed the flowers I started bawling.  It was
really nice having Mike there for me.  For the 1st time in three years I
truly felt like he was there for me. He held me, man it was nice poor
Anthony talked about how he missed Christian and of course I lost it
some more. To see someone so young understand loss as well as he does
hurts. Ok Crying again. Man I bet the guys here are like gee get a grip.
LOL I am glad we went we hadn't gone up there as a family since
Christian passed away.  Anthony and I had gone up once and I went up
alone one time. I think we need to do it and I am glad we did.  I have
decided that from now one I will call the flower shop in advance and
request some baby blue carnations before Christians b-day.  I got him
three roses this year (cause he 3) :) and I know it will get pricey so
that is the reason I am going to carnations. I know I don't say much on
here anymore and I am sorry.  I am usually really busy but when I do it
is a doozy.  Thanks for everyone's thoughts and prayers.  To those who
have just joined and those of us old timers hehe The pain of the loss is
always there and we have our good days and our bad days. The new norm is
the hardest if you ask me.  All of those firsts we miss makes it hard.
My heart and hugs go out to everyone on the list.  I love this list we
are always supporting each other and I know it is something we all need
especially in times like the birth and angel days of our beloved angels.

Ok look I am babbling again. Thanks again everyone and big hugs...... 


Marianne 
Mommy to Anthony (7) Christian T-13 angel 29 Sep 05 - 1 Oct 05

-----Original Message-----
From: tri-wings-bounce@xxxxxxxxxxxxx
[mailto:tri-wings-bounce@xxxxxxxxxxxxx] On Behalf Of Sheila Helleson
Sent: Wednesday, October 01, 2008 1:04 PM
To: tri-wings@xxxxxxxxxxxxx
Subject: [tri-wings] Re: Birthdays & Angel days

Dear Marianne,
I know this is late for Christian's birthday, but since it is his  
angel day, I thought you might need an extra hug or two today, too.   
I hope you find it peaceful, but still allowing you the sorrow of the  
day.
Love you,

Marianne
Mommy to Anthony (7) Christian T-13 angel 29 Sep 05 - 1 Oct 05

Always there for a Hug and a Prayer!
Sheila Helleson                 Minnesota Grandma to:
Hope (T-18 ^i^ 11-1-1) & Alison (almost 4); Cadence (7.5 yrs) and  
Bridge (4 + yrs)
Mom to Cheryl (& Denny);  Wade (& Charity)
Wife to Richard

"Shared joy is double joy, and shared sorrow is half-sorrow."   
Swedish Proverb
Laughter and tears are the healing medicines of God.








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