[tri-wings] Rant about my ex

Please feel free to hit the delete key right now as I'm not sure where this is 
going but do need to write it down and get it off my chest.
On Tuesday evening Steve (my ex)phoned the kids.This in itself is something 
that only happens when there is a blue moon or pink snow but that's the way I 
prefer it be anyhow.After he had gone, Charlotte let it slip that Dad had taken 
Chris (his boyfriend) to put flowers on Gareth's and Dominic's graves. Maybe 
I'm way out of line but I really am %*$$ed off by the fact that he has been 
there with Chris.I know he could say the same about me taking Barry but he 
never went when we were married and has never been since we split (to my 
knowledge).His attitude has always been that they are gone and we should bury 
the past so why has he suddenly felt the need to take his new boyfriend? He 
laughed at my compulsion to visit daily in the beginning and then weekly as 
time moved on.He couldn't understand my need to get the headstones engraved and 
used to laugh at me when I made an early morning trip there on angel days and 
Christmas Day.All that I can think is that they made it some kind of freak show 
(just like his mother did when we buried them) and I can imagine him standing 
there telling the story like he sees it and how I have never been "normal" 
since.
I'm glad that Charlotte did tell me and if he has had some kind of life 
changing experience that has made him release what grief is then fine but I 
strongly suspect that it was more of a sight seeing trip than anything else or 
maybe he was just telling his daughter to make it know to me he had spent some 
money on flowers for two of his children......like I ring him everytime I go 
there or everytime I buy something for his two living children !!!!! 
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

Ok rant over.....
Back to normal service :-)

hugs
Mandy,wife to Baz, mum to Matthew(12),Charlotte (10) , Gareth (t18 ^i^ 
14/11/99)and Dominic (CH ^i^ 23/7/00) and my little pot of gold at the end of a 
very long rainbow
,Alfie( 19 Apr 04),
step mum to Katie(^i^) Ed (16)and Lucy(14 )England,UK
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