[tri-wings] Re: No one remembered

Mandy,
Thank you for responding. I know that I will never forget Leslie but I don't
feel like anyone (except those on this list) really cares. It's like there
attitude is oh your baby died so she isn't important. I thought about them
maybe not wanting to make things worse for me, but I am very open with my
friends and family and they all know that the only way I have gotten this
far is by talking about her and remembering her. Usually right around her
birthday I wear my I believe in Angels sweatshirt or my angel earrings, plus
everyday I wear a necklace that has a little girl with Leslie's name on it.
I wear that so people aren't afraid to ask about her.
I have had numerous conversations with my family and friends about how I
need to acknowledge Leslie's birthday, and I have tried to plan a balloon
release or something, but I can't get anyone to participate. Maybe I am
going about things all the wrong way. I don't know. I think today has been
even harder than yesterday was. Leslie's father called me today and lied
about having been out to the cemetery, just so I wouldn't be mad at him. He
said he was out at the cemetery at 5:45. They close the gates at 5 when it
gets dark. He must think I am an idiot.
Anyway I have rambled on long enough. Thank you again for responding to my
message, I don't want anyone here to feel like I was pointing fingers. I
reread the first line of the first email I sent after I hit send, and
realized how it sounded.  I just have felt so alone the past few days and I
knew that I could come here and let it out. I do apologize if I sounded like
I was upset with anyone here. Thank you all so much for listening.

> Looking at some support sites recently I was made aware of what I think is
> an excellent idea and it was simply this .
> >>On days that are particularly difficult such as due dates, birthdays and
> anniversaries you could wear a small black ribbon or a pink or blue one.
> This may trigger the memory of those around you to be extra gentle with
you
> on those days. <<

Stacey
Mommy to an angel
Leslie Serina 11-20-96
T-9 ^i^

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