[tri-wings] Re: Mrs Mandy Ryan :)

Dear Corinne,
That first year of grief is by far the hardest and as Haley wasn't due to be
1 till January it's still technically your first year.  Be kind to you and
know that we are there with you and that things do get
better.......eventually...
{{{Corinne}}}
Tracey <///>< CM/RN, Mum to Jenny (16), Louise T18 (in heaven since 1990),
Jono (12), Jesse (9), Jimmy (the angel dog), Millie & Pippa and most
grateful wife of David my soulmate & best friend.

homepages www.geocities.com/cuddlefishtoo/index.html

OUR GOD REIGNS

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----- Original Message ----- 
From: <Mum2haley@xxxxxxx>
To: <tri-wings@xxxxxxxxxxxxx>
Sent: Friday, December 12, 2003 2:33 AM
Subject: [tri-wings] Re: Mrs Mandy Ryan :)


> Ok, Ill be the first.  I admit, Im more of a lurker than anything.  I dont
> post much, but I do read all the time.  This is my second Christmas
without my
> angel Haley.  She was born on Sept 10, 02.  Her due date was Jan 26, 03.
I
> think that last year I was still in shock.  This year it is so much more
"REAL"
> if you know what I mean.  Last year, she shouldnt have even been born yet,
this
> year, shed be almost 1.  I am having a very hard time lately dealing with
> this.  Somedays I feel the way I did the day I lost her.  I have a few
special
> moments with my angel.  My first was the night before I was scheduled to
be
> induced (which I deeply regret now), I hadnt felt her move yet and I was
so sad
> about that...then, while laying in bed, its like she could tell my
> feelings...and I felt one little kick!  I always wonder what she was
trying to tell me.  Of
> course my other moment was just holding her, looking at her...to others
she
> was a baby who was "incompatible with life".  To me she was my girl, my
first
> child who will never be forgotten, she was perfect to me.  We didnt know
of her
> Trisomy until after her tests after she was born, we had only known of
> Anencephaly, a fatal neural tube defect.  I have so many regrets...and so
much grief
> still bottled up inside...sometimes I feel like I am dealing with it
> incredibly well, and then other times, I just fall apart..I feel like I
want to run
> away, that if my baby girl isnt here, I dont want to be either.  Well, Im
> getting a little off the topic....thanks for listening...
> Corinne
> Mother to Haley Marie T18, September 10, 2002
> And my earth angel and reason for living,
> Nathan Michael, Sept 26, 2003
>
>
>                   Building ___ooOOoo__ Rainbows
>                        www.trisomyonline.org
>                   Families Helping Families On-line
>


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