[tri-wings] Re: Let me introduce myself

>I seem to replay the events of her last hours over & over.  I'm hoping to
stop doing that soon, it does no good.  When I think about her,
  I want
 to remember the 19 months of happy, not that one day.  I want to remember
how hard she tried to smile.....and that she only smiled at me (she was
stingy that way).<

((((((((((((Stacie)))))))))))))

Sending you lots of hugs.  When I read your post I felt like I was reading
my own just a few weeks ago.  I, too, have had difficulty with the memories
of Ashley's last days.  Those hard moments just creep into your mind and you
can't shake them out of your head no matter how hard you try.  Ashley's
passing was sudden and unexpected as well.  I knew that her chances for
survival were so slim, but she had proven the Dr's wrong so many times and
seemed to be doing so well.  I also felt the guilt that you mention and
sometimes still do.  I wonder if she might have been suffering and if she
was in pain.  Oh, it's just too painful to even think about.  So, I share
those tears and those struggles with you.

But, there is light at the end of the tunnel.  Those memories are starting
to fade and when they creep into my head I go to the many beautiful pictures
I have of her and it makes me remember how happy she was.  She never knew
she was a special needs child.  I know that Hailey Grace felt all of the
love that you gave her and that she gave that love back to you 100 fold.
May warm memories of her flood your mind and may your pain be lessened with
the comfort of knowing you will see her again someday.  This is my prayer
for you.

Blessings,
 
Tiffany-Mommy to Ashley Grace-Our Sweet Baby Girl (Tetrasomy 9,
1/20/04-3/28/04) and wife to Chad 

"For everything God created is good, and nothing is to be rejected if it is
received with thanksgiving..." 1Tim 4:4 NIV











                


                  Building ___ooOOoo__ Rainbows
                       www.trisomyonline.org
                  Families Helping Families On-line

Other related posts: