[tri-wings] Re: Hey eveyone

Nicole,
I know how you feel. My daughter Ellie was born on 6/26/03 and left us
6/29/03. I have an extremely hard time with babies, especially of family
members.  We are not going to Thanksgiving or Christmas this year
because there are baby girls on both sides of our family and it is just
way too much to handle.  I can't handle pregnant women either as that
just doesn't seem to be going my way right now either. I'd really like
to be pregnant but it just isn't happening. 

You need to grieve and your family hopefully will be supportive of
that. Ours is most of the time, but time alone won't do it. It is what
you do with your time.

I'm thinking of you and Kasidy.
Love,
Erin,
Ellie's Mommy 6/26-29/03 (T-13)

>>> XoKaSiDy143oX@xxxxxxx 11/25/03 11:22AM >>>
Hi Everyone, 
   Well how is all doing , I am ok. Well I feel like all i do is work
and 
work. Well i have a question to ask u guys. See my cousin just had a
baby girl on 
Sun, of course i am happy but sad, I mean i don't show that to them,
but 
inside it bothers me, cuz i feel like my Kasidy should be here also, I
know it's 
selfish but i can't help it. Then my best friend is pregant and i
haven't been 
much support to her, but it's that i don't want to , but don't know how
to u 
kwo, she found out she is having a lil girl and she is namying her
Emily Aileen 
middle name like Kasidy's but then she asked me to be the godmother,
but I 
don't know if i can be a good one, and a part of me feels like she is
doing it 
out of pitty and I don't want that either, i know this isn't right but
i can't 
help it, I mean at times i feel so alon , my family never wants to
metion her 
name or talk about her and when i do they basically tell me to shut up
and it 
bothers me, i mean they act like she doesn't exsit and tell me to move
on but 
they don't understand it is hard. Like for christmas i made Kasidy a
stocking 
and my dad and sis think it is crazy but to me it's not, its like they
say 
your young don't worry u will have more. Yes it is tru i am only 20 but
still 
that was my daughter that i gave birth to , I am sorry to ramble on and
on but i 
know i can vent to u gys and u guys wil listen to what i have to say.
Thanks 
for listening, it mans alot to me. Take care all.


Nicole,
Mom to my angel Kasidy ^i^ 7-28-03
(Full Trisomy 13). Will always have you
in my heart baby girl.
visit us: www.babiesonline.com/babies/k/kasidy 


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