[tri-wings] Hey eveyone

Hi Everyone, 
   Well how is all doing , I am ok. Well I feel like all i do is work and 
work. Well i have a question to ask u guys. See my cousin just had a baby girl 
on 
Sun, of course i am happy but sad, I mean i don't show that to them, but 
inside it bothers me, cuz i feel like my Kasidy should be here also, I know 
it's 
selfish but i can't help it. Then my best friend is pregant and i haven't been 
much support to her, but it's that i don't want to , but don't know how to u 
kwo, she found out she is having a lil girl and she is namying her Emily Aileen 
middle name like Kasidy's but then she asked me to be the godmother, but I 
don't know if i can be a good one, and a part of me feels like she is doing it 
out of pitty and I don't want that either, i know this isn't right but i can't 
help it, I mean at times i feel so alon , my family never wants to metion her 
name or talk about her and when i do they basically tell me to shut up and it 
bothers me, i mean they act like she doesn't exsit and tell me to move on but 
they don't understand it is hard. Like for christmas i made Kasidy a stocking 
and my dad and sis think it is crazy but to me it's not, its like they say 
your young don't worry u will have more. Yes it is tru i am only 20 but still 
that was my daughter that i gave birth to , I am sorry to ramble on and on but 
i 
know i can vent to u gys and u guys wil listen to what i have to say. Thanks 
for listening, it mans alot to me. Take care all.


Nicole,
Mom to my angel Kasidy ^i^ 7-28-03
(Full Trisomy 13). Will always have you
in my heart baby girl.
visit us: www.babiesonline.com/babies/k/kasidy


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