[tri-wings] Hello!!!!! I'm back!

Was that a European maternity leave or what???? (see, us American's don't get 6 
months or a year) I had no intention of being MIA for so long.  I have missed 
you all, but keep looking at the thousands of mails that have accumulated in my 
inbox and never seem to be able to take the time to drop a line.  I have 
decided to do a mass dump and just jump in.  Sorry if I have missed any major 
events, hopefully I can catch up.

Rylee Nicole Waprehoski was born on October 20, 2003 - can't believe she is 
five months already!  She was 9 pounds 13 ounces - not a wimpy child - and 
healthy as a horse!  She has been such a delight for us inspite of her colic 
(but I'm not about to complain about that!)  The only thing with that is that 
you feel so bad for her, I knew she was in pain and there was nothing I could 
do for her.  She got over that right around the 3 month mark.  Then at the 4 
month mark she discovered that she has a lovely scream - used in anger.  I have 
never heard such a scream out of a small little package - people just laugh, 
you can't do anything else.  I think we have that under control now, and she is 
just all smiles.  I took her in last week for her check up and she is now 14 
pounds 11 ounces (she's slid down to just above the 50 percentile in weight but 
is still 95 for height at 26 inches).

Jake and Nicole are great with her.  They just adore her - usually when it is 
convenient for them.  Nicole has her Driver's permit, which is very scary.  I 
just color my hair a little more often these days.  Jake is in 6th grade and 
doing his thing.  Just got back from his school conference - straight A's once 
again.  He makes me so proud.

We were very shocked after Rylee's birth about the emotions that surfaced.  I 
say this to try to prepare you Wings mom's-to-be.  I guess I went through the 
pregnancy thinking that once she was here, the pain of losing Jessica would 
lessen (never thinking that Rylee would replace Jessica, but hoping that the 
loss would soften) - I couldn't have been more wrong.  Both Mike and I had a 
very difficult time.  I finally hit the anger part of grief.  I never felt that 
before, but the rush of have a new baby just made me realize what I had been 
missing and would never get with Jessica.  It really blew me away how the 
feelings come so uncontrollably.  I guess that is what was hard - the 
uncontrollable part of it.  I felt like I had handled everything with Jessica 
pretty good until then.  Mike felt the same only we never discussed it until 
after because we didn't want to upset the other.  Sorry to ramble on, but I 
think it's something that some of you might want to be aware of.  Everyone 
grieves differently, but this one just shocked me.

To those of you that are new here, I am sorry that you had to find us.  This is 
a wonderful group of people that have done so much for so many.  I found the 
list when I was pregnant two years ago.  I don't know how I would have gotten 
through the loss of Jessica with out the kind souls that are here.  I'm sure 
you will find the same.  My story is posted at the link below my name if you 
would like to read about Jessica.  I've been bad and haven't updated it for 
about a year, but hopefully that will be something I can mess with during one 
of those nap periods.

It's good to be back, and I hope that Rylee cooperates everyday as well as she 
has today so I can get back in the loop again.

lotsofluv
Deanna                                                                
Mom to Nicole 15, Jake 11, Jessica (our beautiful T18 angel) 05/04/02 and Rylee 
5 months, wife to Mike
Coal Valley, IL
meet Jessica at http://home.att.net/~warpehoski
 



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