[tri-wings] Re: Hello

Hi Kathleen,
 
I'm glad you found your way to this list. I have found it to be a safe  
place to share feelings with many people who truly understand what it feels 
like  to lose a child. 
While I didn't give birth to my children, I too fear forgetting things. I  
worry that I'll forget the sound of their voices even though the memories of 
the  time leading up to their loss is so fresh in my mind. 
I have found it helpful to keep a file on my computer of the emails and  
tri-wings posts that we sent and received in those first months following 
their  deaths. 
I did do some journaling in the beginning and so wish that I had done  
more.  I have found that my need to talk about my children has outlasted  other 
peoples willingness to listen. I think that people who haven't walked this  
path don't understand that the  sense ofloss doesn't go away
 
 
In a message dated 7/25/2009 8:28:27 P.M. Central America Standard T,  
kathleen.hards@xxxxxxxxxxxxx writes:
Hello:
I just joined Tri-Wings.  I had found so much hope and  comfort in the 
other Tri-Med email list, that I thought I would write and see  what kind of 
support I could find here.  

My Bethany Kate died in  utero April 21, 2009 and was delivered April 23rd. 
 She had full T-18 and  passed away at 35 weeks.  

I am writing because I am struggling  and looking for comfort.  I think I 
have been  subconsciously suppressing my pain and emotions, and have not 
found the  time to adequately grieve.  I have three daughters to take care of, 
and  with all the activities of summer and what not, I have kept myself busy 
- for  better or for worse.  But it finally began to dawn on me last night, 
when  I found myself lying awake for HOURS, reliving all the moments of my 
pregnancy  and delivery with Bethany.  I find myself scared that I will 
forget  what few memories I have of her.  Some days, it feels like this  whole 
journey never happened at all.  

Surely there are parents  out there who have courageous walked this path 
before me.  I am looking  for some peace and someone to share.

Kathleen
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