[tri-wings] First birthday without Brendan

Sorry I have been lurking lately but there has been so much going on here that 
I haven't had the time to do much more then read the emails.  Just briefly to 
let you know what has been happening,  John came home drunk (not the first time 
but the worst one) about a month ago, anyway has was very threatening in front 
of the kids and really scared me so I called the police and he was arrested and 
removed from the house.  He has been living at his mom's since then and going 
to AA meetings we are trying to work it out but I don't want him back in the 
house for a while.  He is really taking AA seriously this time and has been 
doing everything he is supposed to do.  We are seeing a therapist together to 
try to made it work.  Lots of court datess and things like that.  

The kids are doing okay with it.  We are going to take them to talk with 
someone when they are all home.

I am working 2 part time jobs and really liking it but feel like I am never 
home.  Working with developemntally disabled adults is really good for me I 
feel like I can really help them to make their lives more comfortable.

Next week will be 6 month since Brendan passed away and I have been crying on 
and off just thinking about it.  We got the footstone and headstone done and I 
have yet to go see it.  The following week is his birthday and every time I 
think about it I burst out in tears.  John , the kids and I were planning to go 
to the amusement park near here to celebrate his birthday.  It's one of those 
places that has all the lights and nioces that I know he would hae loved (when 
he had his hearing aides on) I wanted to invite the whole family but John 
thought we should only do us and the kids, but I told him we would have never 
had his birthday with just us.  I think it would be better with all the aunts, 
uncles, grandparents and cousins.  It doesn't have to be formal just a 
gathering of people who loved Brendan.  I was going to email everyone with a 
simple invite.

I hope everyone is ddoing well and I hope to see everyone who is going to the 
conference.  I am still trying to figure out a way to go to the picnic.  I hope 
I can still register for that and the balloon release I am waiting for some 
money to do that.  

Thanks for reading
Mikki 
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