[tri-wings] Dream - (preg mentioned)

I really thought that I was doing well with this pregnancy as far as trying not 
to worry about the whole Trisomy nightmare.  I have to admit that Mandy was 
right in her theory of dreaming.  The other day Mike told me that he had a 
dream that the baby was a girl and she was healthy.  Of course I was jealous 
because I wanted to know all the details and he couldn't remember them.  Then I 
was talking to his SIL yesterday and she said that she had two dreams about our 
baby and that it was a boy named "Justin".  I made the comment to her - that 
it's funny that everyone is have dreams about the baby in my stomach except me. 
 Well, last night I got it, and it was not good.  The doctor told us we had to 
go to Chicago and have some tests run because there was a problem with the 
baby, it probably wouldn't live etc.  That horrible feeling flooded my body 
again and I woke up with tears in my eyes.  Now I've got all those thoughts in 
my head and I've told myself all along that I was just going to enjoy this 
pregnancy and not worry about all the uncontrollables!  Sounds logical, just 
doesn't work I guess. We've lost our innocence.

We go for a level 2 in the middle of May, keep your fingers crossed.

lotsoflove
Deanna~~~..~
wife to Mike, mom to Nicole 14, Jake 10, Jessica (our T18 angel) May 4, 2002 
and our precious little bundle due Oct. 2003.
meet Jessica @ http://home.att.net/~warpehoski

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