[tri-wings] Angel parents please advise

I lost my son to Trisomy 17 on 9-18-08.

Tell me how do you cope with this loss. I am a mess. I cant think, i forget 
days. Life has come to a complete stop for me. I dont have the strength to 
go on. I hurt so bad I want to sleep all the time just to not have to deal 
with the pain. How do you all do it. What makes you get up and function 
everyday?

Michael only lived for 9 days and today I got his social security card in 
the mail and I just lost it. I never felt a pain so great in my life.

My husband is a wonderful man and right now I cant stand him. I dont want 
him around me or even in my house. I sleep in our spare bedroom cause I dont 
even want to be around him. Am I losing it or am I just screwed up?

I hated to come on here and tell you all this but I know some of you have 
had the same unfortunate loss I suffer and maybe you have some answers. I 
really am so lost right now all I can do is cry and think what if.......I 
had done this or that. Michael was such a beautiful baby it just isnt fair. 
I am so mad. Please anyone advise how do you cope.

Theresa 

                  Building ___ooOOoo__ Rainbows
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