[tri-med] Re: (t13) Hospitilization Update for Anthony Emmanuel Arritola

Janina,

Beautiful words!   Nilda....hang in there.  Janina's words are priceless!

Chris & Mari

-----Original Message-----
>From: Janina A <janinaarritola@xxxxxxxxxxxx>
>Sent: May 28, 2006 8:48 PM
>To: tri-med@xxxxxxxxxxxxx
>Cc: Pmickeymouse621@xxxxxxx
>Subject: [tri-med] Re: (t13) Hospitilization Update for Anthony Emmanuel 
>Arritola
>
>Nilda,
>
>Please do not feel that God is being harsh.  On the contrary, Anthony is 
>comfortable except when he is tryng to let us know he needs more comfort.  If 
>that makes sense.  He has to talk to us and in between, he is being loved and 
>cared for.  Just let your love flow and don't blame.  
>
>Yes I feel sad too ... but it is mostly because I feel his loss before it has 
>happened and I have to remind myself to love in the present, not the future.  
>Do you know why they call it the PRESENT?  Because it is a GIFT, but the 
>present soon becomes the past and so I have to remember to thank God for His 
>PRESENT.  The gift of time.  And I have to remind myself not to skip this 
>PRESENT and try to stay here in the present time, to love and hold and take 
>care of .... At times I am smiling yet tears roll down my face.  Then Anthony 
>looks so peaceful and looking at me bright eyed, I calm down.  
>
>I know alot of moms and dads on this list know what I am feeling.  We all 
>mourn the loss of our child with these diagnoses ... but we can't truly mourn 
>(like the rest of the world mourns) because our children survive ... and with 
>that comes alot of extra emotions ... (good with bad) ... its a roller coaster 
>ride.  We just have to remember that time is a continium.  
>
>I will be OK.  Dont cry for me/us ... allow youself to be sad because you love 
>... but be happy that our lives are not just in the here and now .. but in the 
>eternal continium of life ... with God.  God is a God of Love, not a God of 
>suffering, He sent His son to suffer so that we may have eternal life.  And 
>with that ... I have hope.  So even though tears may roll down my face, I am 
>happy Anthony has a place in heaven that awaits him.  When it does happen, I 
>will miss him dearly.  But, for now, I just cry, and comfort and go on ... 
>living the roller coaster of love.  
>
>Bless you Nilda, your tears are tears of healing, Thank you for your prayers
>
>Janina
>
>
>---- Pmickeymouse621@xxxxxxx wrote: 
>Janina hi and i really do not know what to say since I feel so sad!!! I am  
>crying with you because I can not beleive GOd could be so harsh.  Well I  
>don't 
>know if you remember but today would of been my orginal due date for my  
>little Crispin to be born but God had different plans and I know my little 
>angel  
>is watching over Anthony for us.. I will continue to pray for Anthony, you and 
> Rick.  GOD BLESS 
> 
>LOVE YOU
>NILDA ARIOLA
>
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Chris (mama to Mari, full T18, dob 8/24/01)
Tipp City, OH  45371
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