[tri-med] Re: (t13) Hospitilization Update for Anthony Emmanuel Arritola

Nilda,

Please do not feel that God is being harsh.  On the contrary, Anthony is 
comfortable except when he is tryng to let us know he needs more comfort.  If 
that makes sense.  He has to talk to us and in between, he is being loved and 
cared for.  Just let your love flow and don't blame.  

Yes I feel sad too ... but it is mostly because I feel his loss before it has 
happened and I have to remind myself to love in the present, not the future.  
Do you know why they call it the PRESENT?  Because it is a GIFT, but the 
present soon becomes the past and so I have to remember to thank God for His 
PRESENT.  The gift of time.  And I have to remind myself not to skip this 
PRESENT and try to stay here in the present time, to love and hold and take 
care of .... At times I am smiling yet tears roll down my face.  Then Anthony 
looks so peaceful and looking at me bright eyed, I calm down.  

I know alot of moms and dads on this list know what I am feeling.  We all mourn 
the loss of our child with these diagnoses ... but we can't truly mourn (like 
the rest of the world mourns) because our children survive ... and with that 
comes alot of extra emotions ... (good with bad) ... its a roller coaster ride. 
 We just have to remember that time is a continium.  

I will be OK.  Dont cry for me/us ... allow youself to be sad because you love 
... but be happy that our lives are not just in the here and now .. but in the 
eternal continium of life ... with God.  God is a God of Love, not a God of 
suffering, He sent His son to suffer so that we may have eternal life.  And 
with that ... I have hope.  So even though tears may roll down my face, I am 
happy Anthony has a place in heaven that awaits him.  When it does happen, I 
will miss him dearly.  But, for now, I just cry, and comfort and go on ... 
living the roller coaster of love.  

Bless you Nilda, your tears are tears of healing, Thank you for your prayers

Janina


---- Pmickeymouse621@xxxxxxx wrote: 
Janina hi and i really do not know what to say since I feel so sad!!! I am  
crying with you because I can not beleive GOd could be so harsh.  Well I  don't 
know if you remember but today would of been my orginal due date for my  
little Crispin to be born but God had different plans and I know my little 
angel  
is watching over Anthony for us.. I will continue to pray for Anthony, you and 
 Rick.  GOD BLESS 
 
LOVE YOU
NILDA ARIOLA

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