Dear Sharon, Dont be disheartenend, we do not have all the answers,I find it very hard to believe that God does these things.He is a good God and I dont see any reason why he would make anybody suffer especally children.I wish we culd understand it better.I always believe there is a reason for everyting.we may not know at this very moment what the reason is but sometime we will.I ray to God to give you strength.I have thought of the same things you have and am still asking the same questions but have no answers. lalitha On Tue, Aug 26, 2008 at 11:10 AM, <SHAMOND73@xxxxxxx> wrote: > i have been through nothing compared to how busy you have been the past few > weeks and years. but this week, i feel like i have just had it. i just > don't > get this whole world, or what g-d is doing with us. Of course this is > because > of Jason. i don't understand- i am supposed to believe that he is meant to > be, that g-d intended him this way, right?........that is what gets me > through > my days, that is why i did not have an abortion, that is what i believed. > > but it bothers me that most trisomy's end in miscarriage and they say > "because it was not supposed to be"..........i am having a hard time again > in > dealing with this and my decision to have him. i want answers. This is so > frustrating and because i knew early and had a choice i feel like i brought > this on > myself. > > i feel like i have had enough and don't even want to be here anymore. i am > in no way suicidal. i just sometimes feel like heaven is a better place > than > here and i rather be there than here. Because i just don't understand this > world. Its just not a happy place for me anymore. > > i have not felt this way in a while- so i guess i have had a few good weeks > and should be grateful for that. > > Sharon Monderer > mom to Jason T17m, and Lauren 3 years od > > > **************It's only a deal if it's where you want to go. Find your > travel > deal here. > (http://information.travel.aol.com/deals?ncid=aoltrv00050000000047) > > > Building ___ooOOoo__ Rainbows > www.trisomyonline.org > Families Helping Families On-line > > Building ___ooOOoo__ Rainbows www.trisomyonline.org Families Helping Families On-line