Lots to tell of what i bought etcetera, so sit comfatably and sip your drink while i gabble on or delete. The bad is as you know if a fire happens here i will be cremated as i cannot get outside through three fire doors, the scary bit is they have taken measurements and are going to smash my window and wall down this week and put two french doors in which is the good news and will have a concrete ramp to the path, plus the doors will be thumb locks, i do not understand thumb locks will know after, i have two arms, two hands and two legs and two feet, but to go out i need wheelchair, as my left foot drags, i was like a prisoner before and only recently i have been given a carer to take me out once a week for three hours to go to the shops,, if i go to hospital or doctors etcetera, they take my shopping day off me, it costs three pounds fifty pence for a taxi and i can get in a london cab taxi, but there is only one in the whole area, so i have to pay eight pounds one way to shops that is just up the road, when i was at the hospital there was a two hour wait, and it takes one hour for the journey and the carer was going to leave me there on my own, the wheelchair has a joystick on the back, luckily for me she had no money for a taxi back to where she parked her car in my car park space at home, kept arguing on her mobile to her boss and passing me the phone while i am trying to listen to the doctor who was not amused by her actions of the continuous disruptions. Anyways went with different carer to town in the expensive disability bus, with my daughter and little grandson, the one who had the meningitis etcetera a few times, thank you for all your prayers and emails, he dropped an awful lot of weight from just having drips and went well below the bottom line, he is now coming up to the middle line of the weight line, the middle line is normal weight, he is walking, but crawls faster and gabbles away saying something or other and laughs so cutely, he loves quavers and yoghurts. Anyways as i say we arrive in town and i bought in studio twenty one three blingy bling little box purses, a yellow, blue and a pink all sparkly for my grand daughter, cost only a pound, watch that carol march straight there lol. bought two maxi dresses, i love maxi dresses, very feminine, one silk and one cotton. bought in w h smiths a self healing cutting mat, if you cut or emboss on it, it will self heal back to normal, bought this knife, it is like a pen, my aim is to bluetack a saucer or egg cup or silhouette onto a piece of card which is on the self healing mat, hold this pen and i will be able to cut around the circle, it is called a pen craft knife, but is when held exactly like holding a biro pen, bought also a fiskars twelve inch euro trimmer, safer than a guillatine, you place paper on it and move the ruler thingy to the required inches you want to cut and slide this square across and your paper is cut in a swiped second, scared a little i am of these guilitine and knife, but i want to be independant, but the thought is flippin scary innit, little grandson pulled a furry two or three foot snake off the shelf and screamed while it was given to the cashier to be paid for, was quiet once had it back, starting early of knowing how to get his own way. bought my daughter her favourite raspberry swirly cakes from gregs and mickey star shaped biscuits for my grandson. bought my son who is in america a silver scroll holder, so he can put his graduation scroll in, it has a silver stand that you put the scroll holder onto, my sons graduation day is in a few weeks time and his birthday is same day as our clare on here, i bought a graduation card and made one too out of black card to make it like the hat he will be wearing, it has a tassle hanging down and he will be wearing a graduation gown, he will be known as a professor and have letters after his name, how kewl is that. went to pub, i had black russian and carer and daughter had large coca colas, i forgot about my babby, my little grand son, oh my fancy me doing that to my precious little babby, cannot forgive myself, we went into the pub garden and chilled out in the nice fresh air after trying to rush in so much in such short time. then it was time to go, i said high five to my grandson who is in the pushchair, who apparently always puts his hand up, and i said kisses and put my hand to my mouth and blow him kisses, he apparently puts his hand to his mouth to and blows me kisses back, isn't that the kewlest thing ever, brings tears to my eyes at the thought as i type to you on here, my daughter and i hugged and she kissed my cheek and i waved goodbye and me and carer went on disabled bus home with my scary knife and guilitine. wrote this friday, it is now saturday night at the movies time, took forever to write, as left hand don't work properly, now i can lay down to rest, as some don't know i stand for few hours or lay down few hours, stand up lay down, like simple simon says, my key board is my shoulder height of me standing and has bump ons on the key board, recommend putting one on the one, five and zero, q y p a g l z v m the tab, enter key and down arrow key. the end. from Vanessa The Google Girl. my skype name is rainbowstar123