<USS Avalon> You Get What You Need
- From: CmdrSkyler@xxxxxxx
- To: avalon@xxxxxxxxxxxxx
- Date: Tue, 4 Mar 2008 19:40:47 EST
You Get What You Need
Skyler, Moreya
2008:03:05
After both Moreya and Tery left her quarters, Skyler checked in on Tavi. She
hadn't spent as much time lately with the girl as she would've liked.
Quietly she opened the door to find Tavi asleep. Tucking the covers in around
her,
Skyler gave her a soft kiss on her head. Looking at the girl she never
realized that anyone could affect her as much as this young girl had. She
couldn't
imagine her life without Tavi in it.
Closing the door she quietly made her way to the table in the kitchen area,
rested her head in her hands and silently started to cry. She didn't know
why. She was very confused. She loved Moreya more than she had ever loved
anyone. She also knew she was in love with Tery. She knew Moreya couldn't give
her
a monagomous relationship and she understood why. That didn't change the fact
that she knew Moreya was the woman for her in any capacity possible. She
also wondered how Tery would feel about sharing her with Moreya. She needed to
talk to Moreya. But did she have the right to intrude upon her?
Back in her own quarters, Moreya consulted the library computer terminal for
the latest results in the search for information she had launched before
leaving the bridge to talk with Skyler and Tery. The galaxy was a big place,
yet in her experience, there was little that happened in one part of it that
had not happened somewhere else already. The humans had a phrase for it:
"Nothing new under the sun." She'd based her search on the guess that
somewhere
in Federation records, there would be at least one incident of mass insanity
and murder similar to what had happened at the Institute.
And as she consulted the list of citations the computer displayed for her,
she realized she'd been right. Something much like this had happened before,
and not so long ago, either.
To the Enterprise-D, no less.
Before she could pull up the details, Moreya's comm chirped. Her eyes
widened for just a moment as she saw who was calling.
"Yes, Captain?" she answered. "What's the matter?"
"I am sorry to disturb you so soon." Skyler tried to hide the fact that she
had been crying. "I was wondering if you had discovered any more information
regarding this mission? Also, why do you insist on calling me Captain after
all we have been through?"
"Please don't take offense," Moreya said. "When we are discussing ship's
business and our mission, I prefer to call you by your title. When we are
speaking to each other personally, I will call you by your name. If I am not
sure which it will be -- as was the case just now -- I assume it is a matter
of
ship's business until I know otherwise. I do this in order to focus my mind
on what is important for that moment -- and for physiological reasons which I
don't think we need to go into right now.
"And yes, I have found a little more information. I'm reading now a report
on an encounter the Enterprise-D had once, which sounds very similar to what
happened at the Institute. I should be able to finish it shortly. But -- "
and here her voice took on a softer tone -- "is there something else you
wanted to talk about?"
"You said earlier if we wanted to talk you were available. Is that offer
still on the table or have I taken enough of your time?" Skyler thought that
the
latter was most likely.
"Of course the offer is still there."
"I don't want to take up anymore of your valuable time than I already have.
Yet....I find I need to talk to you. To find out your thoughts and feelings
about this situation. If now is not a good time I understand."
"I think this is a very good time. If I can help ease your mind, that
benefits all of us. Will you come to my quarters?"
"Yes, Tavi is asleep. I will be there shortly. Thank you again my friend."
Closing the comm unit Skyler walked to the bath and washed the tears from her
face. She ran her hand through her short hair and took a deep breath. She
didn't know why she was so nervous but then again perhaps she did. She had
changed into more casual clothing and wondered if it was appropriate. She was
going to just talk after all....was she not?
Moreya looked at the comm for a moment, then turned away, taking a deep
breath, then several more in rapid succession. "Computer, lights at fifty
percent." The room instantly dimmed. She rose and lit several candles which
were
set on a tray near her door. While they had no scent of their own, their
invisible vapors would clear much of her Deltan pheremones from the air.
Closing her eyes and turning her mental focus inward, she re-established
control
over the pheremone release, which she had relaxed while alone. Crossing the
room, she lit another lightly scented candle and two sticks of sandalwood
incense, swirling them around a little before setting them in a tray of sand
to
finish burning. She pulled a pitcher and two glasses of cold water from the
replicator, set them on her work table, and sat back down to wait for Skyler.
Having checked on Tavi one last time, Skyler slowly made her way to Moreya's
quarters, doubting herself the entire time. Was she making a mistake
intruding upon her friend so soon after she had left her quarters? Was she
taking
advantage of this friendship? She was so confused she didn't know what to do
or
what to think. Upon reaching Moreya's quarters she stood outside the door.
She didn't know why she was hesitating so. The worst that could happen was
that Moreya would tell her to get her act together and leave her alone. She
highly doubted that was going to happen. The fact of the matter was she had no
idea what was going to happen. After taking several deep breaths she managed
to
push the chime.
The door opened to reveal Moreya, dressed in one of the long robes she
favored when not on duty. She gave Skyler a quick hug and ushered her inside,
then sat back down next to the work table. "What is troubling you so, dear
Skyler?"
"I think you know Moreya, which if I am not mistaken is why you have candles
and incense burning. You are trying to keep your pheremones under control so
as not to distract me. I don't want you to feel that you have to do that
every time we are alone." Sitting on the floor in front of the couch Skyler
leaned her head back and sighed.
"I'm trying to minimize your distractions right now because I thought it
might make things easier on you," Moreya said, "but I most certainly do not
feel
obligated to do that every time we're alone. Quite the opposite. And it
just so happens, I like sandalwood incense. Now then. Yes, I have a good
guess as to why you're here. But I'm not going to do your thinking for you."
"You made an offer to talk to either Tery or I. I suppose I am here to take
you up on that offer. I truly don't know what to do." Skyler pulled her knees
up to her chest and wrapped her arms around them.
"Don't know what to do about what?"
Frustrated, Skyler spoke abrubptly without meaning to. "You, Tery, me. I
don't know what to do about this entire situation. I want you in my life....as
more than just a friend. Yet, I think I want Tery to be in my life as well. I
just don't know if the two are compatible. I guess that is where you come
in." She looked at her friend, not sure what she was thinking. "I need to know
how you feel about this whole situation. Can we continue with what we have had
or must it return to simple friendship?"
Moreya looked at Skyler, quelling an impulse to laugh aloud and allowing
instead a long, slow smile to spread across her face. "You're afraid that you
will be forced to choose between us, which lover you can keep? You've been
afraid that I'm going to tell you, 'it's her or me?' Nine Gods, beloved, such
a
degree of hypocrisy from me would surely rip spacetime apart faster than a
warp nacelle on overload.
"I hoped you'd say that. But with all the candles and incense you have
burning, I guess I got scared. Being around you is not a distraction, if
anything
it helps me to think clearer." She looked up at Moreya and smiled, "You make
me think things I would never dream about. Talk about things I wouldn't talk
about. You don't need to consider yourself a distraction around me. You can
be yourself even when burning sandalwood incense."
The Deltan smiled. "Thank you. Now, I suppose that whether Tery is willing
to accept a menage a trois is still an open question. But there is no
question at all that she still loves and wants you, and is willing to go a
considerable way to prove it."
"How do you know that? Have you spoken with her about this?" Leaning her
head back Skyler took a deep breath and closed her eyes.
"I haven't spoken with her since we left your quarters. But I can't help
but believe, based on the way she carried herself while we were all there,
that
she does love you, and does want to prove it. Her reactions to your
reactions, in particular. It is a subtle thing, perhaps, but still."
"Reactions? Reactions to what?" Had she been so obvious about her feelings
that Tery had picked up on them?
"Think back a few minutes," Moreya said. "You told Tery how hurt you were,
how what she had done had affected you. She explained what had happened,
told you she was sorry, asked for your forgiveness, and reasserted her love
for
you. Your reaction was to repeat what you had said a moment before, that you
didn't understand why she left, why she didn't leave word. You told her
that she had cast you aside.
"And what did Tery do then? She accepted that. Accepted the fact that she
would have to win you back. Accepted your resentment. If she didn't love
you and want your love in return, she wouldn't have done that."
Looking at Moreya, Skyler asked quietly, "How do you feel about being
involved with me while, or if I was to be involved with Tery? I don't want to
have
to choose between the two of you. IF I had to choose I already know who it
would be."
A sigh escaped Moreya's lips before she could catch it. She leaned forward,
cupping Skyler's head between her hands and looking directly into her eyes.
"My comment a moment ago about hypocrisy was not clear enough? Then let me
spell it out for you in words of one syllable. I would be delighted to
continue to be involved with you, whether you resume your intimacy with Tery
or
not. You do not have to choose." She took a deep breath, releasing her hold
on Skyler's head, but not her gaze. "Do you understand me? You do not have
to choose."
Looking into Moreya's eyes, Skyler knew at that moment that she indeed
didn't need to choose. Holding Moreya's gaze she quietly responded, "Yes, I do
understand. No matter the outcome I am not going to lose you or have to choose
between you or anyone else."
Still feeling the touch of her friends hands on her face, Skyler did the
only thing she could think of, leaning forward she softly kissed Moreya. As
they
seperated she again spoke softly, "May I stay the night? The couch will do
just fine and I promise not to be a bother. You can fill me in on what you
have found about this dimension we must deal with." She wasn't going to deny
her
thoughts were on what could but, most likely wouldn't happen. However she
just needed to be close to Moreya. She didn't want to be alone. Not tonight.
"Of course. You can get some rest while I finish reading and digesting all
the information the library computer has turned up for me." Moreya smiled,
leaning in to kiss Skyler lightly before standing up. "I will be a while, but
you are welcome to my bed if you wish."
"I think I would prefer to just lay here and watch you work. If I am going
to be in your bed I much rather you be in it with me. I know that sounds brash
but I cannot lie. Not to you or to myself. So, you go about your reading and
digesting and I will just lie here and wait until you are done."
"As you wish, my dear."
Skyler flipped off her shoes and made herself comfortable on the couch. She
watched as Moreya ran her graceful and exquisite fingers over her console.
She could lay there all day and watch her friend and never grow weary.
Unfortunately the stress of the day appeared to have gotten the better of her
and
soon she was asleep. The last thing she heard was Moreya's voice, murmuring
instructions.
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