<USS Avalon> "The Stranger Next to Me"
- From: Lyryn Cate <wistful_fancy@xxxxxxxxx>
- To: avalon@xxxxxxxxxxxxx
- Date: Fri, 17 Jun 2005 02:29:58 -0700 (PDT)
The Stranger Next to Me
Elissabeth Marksbury
With Special Guest Writer
Gryphon as Yul
It was a long moment before she even realised James had left her office and
when she did, she moved over and sank softly onto the small sofa. Elissabeth
felt more like a lost little girl than she ever did as a child, and for an
innumerable time missed her father. Her real father. The harsh man who ran the
orphanage and expected nothing but perfection from her. He would understand the
choices she made. He wouldn't have approved of all of them, but he would
understand.
She was unsure of how much time had passed, but that sick little knot never
left her stomach as she considered the things James had told her. How many more
people are you going to push aside, Liss? he'd asked. "Damned good question,"
she muttered, attempting to shake off the feelings of self-pity. Standing, she
decided that she wasn't going to sit here like this any longer. Maybe she could
even find Bryce and talk through things rationally. Or not. She wasn't sure,
but knew she had to be anywhere but there.
Instinct led her to the lounge and to 'their' table, which, thankfully, was
empty. Everyone wasn't back from shore leave yet, apparently. She settled in
with a cup of tea she didn't really want and stared at the planet through the
viewport.
Yul watched the woman sit at a table near him. He looked at the full glass of
water in front of him and then over at the woman. He could tell from her body
language that she was feeling somewhat sad. He decided to try to start a
conversation. "Slow night, huh?"
Looking up towards the voice, Elissabeth tried to answer politely. "Looks that
way." She then turned her attention back to the view, hoping he'd get the hint.
Not a big talker, eh? "What brings you to the lounge at this time of night?"
She turned her head slowly. "Seems time of day would be relative on a starship,
Mr. - ?"
"Oh, pardon me, how rude. Yul, name's Yul."
"Is that first, last, or one in the same?"
"One in the same, just Yul, no more, no less."
A slight smirk escaped her lips against her will because it reminded her of
Skyler. She then nodded and resumed her planet watching.
"And I suppose whether it's day or night, depends on how you measure and look
at time. I would consider this night, where as you consider it day, both are
correct, depending on how you look at it."
"Hence the statement on relativity," she sighed, suprising herself with her
rudeness.
Yul nodded and replied, "Either way, you still did not answer my question."
"I'm rather evasive like that." And suddenly she felt silly for carrying on a
conversation from two tables away, though she'd rather not it be a conversation
to begin with.
"I can see that. However, I'm just curious, the lounge doesn't seem like a
popular place when one can go on shoreleave." Yul looked around the lounge to
prove his point.
"I came here to be alone in a crowd. But I don't think the crowd was on the
same wavelength." What in the world possessed me to admit that? Biting her lip,
she turned to firmly stare out the viewport, hoping he'd get the hint and go
away.
Ah, regretting saying that I see. "Well, I'm sorry to disappoint you, but it
seems that I'll be the only crowd for you tonight."
Elissabeth used that moment to sip her tea, deciding whether or not to leave,
because she obviously wasn't going to be left alone. The ship seemed so empty.
There were only one or two tables with occupants scattered about the room. And
two tables away sat the overly friendly fellow determined to make her
acquaintance. Just like Bryce had... The thought brought the tears to her eyes
again and she tried to remove them nonchalantly.
Why so glum chum? "Trying to hide from something, or someone?"
"You have a lot of audacity."
Yul shrugged. "It comes with the territory."
"You're not the new counselor, are you?"
"No, but I could be one."
"Nosey and invasive. I've had enough of that for one day if you don't mind."
I can see that you want to talk, but you won't let yourself. "Why do you choose
to push people away, when all they want to do is help?"
Elissabeth blinked repeatedly. What did he just say? Narrowing her eyes, she
pointed at the seat across from her. "Sit."
Yul grabbed the still full glass of water and took the seat across from the
woman. He interlaced his fingers and rested his hands on the table.
"What would make you say that?"
"Because that seems to be the situation at hand."
"I don't push people away," she said with almost a vehement hiss.
Lie. "Then what was that?"
She closed her eyes. Stay rational, Liss. "It was me being annoyed that a total
stranger was asking me personal questions. You don't even know my name and yet
you've determined that I need 'help'. Not only is it arrogant, but it's
frustrating, especially when I wanted to be left alone."
Obviously. "Well, I do know your name Commander Marksbury. And though you may
have wanted to be left alone, you also want to talk to someone."
"Says who?!" And that's when calm and rational left the scene, she thought. Who
was this and why did he think he knew her so well?
That got you pondering something, or is it an inner struggle? "Says you. Maybe
not verbally, but you have been saying it."
Blowing out a breath of frustration, she asked, "Is this a joke? Did someone
send you here to mess with me?"
"No, not at all."
"Well, you're mistaken. I don't need help, and if I did, I'd go to one of my
friends, not confiding in someone I just met in the lounge, who can't keep his
thoughts to himself." She was surprised over the fact she'd lost her temper.
Was it because he?s right?
Half-truth. "If you truly feel that you don't want help, then I shall leave
you. However, I am correct that you want to talk to someone, and you have
someone to talk to right here."
Elissabeth bit her tongue. Hard. And still the words she didn't want to say
escaped her lips. "I had a particularly bad fight with the man I love more than
I ever thought possible and I can't stand the thought of actually living
without him." Eyes wide, she couldn't figure out why in the universe she just
said that.
Now we're getting somewhere. "And what was the fight about?"
Stop it! But there was no stopping. "He was prying, trying to find out things
because he thinks he can protect me. Doesn't understand that my not telling him
is my way of protecting him." It was as if some spell had been cast and she
couldn't shut her mouth.
Definitely an inner struggle. "So why don't you explain that to him?"
"I tried. He's stubborn."
Something you two have in common. "Well, if you truly love him, and he truly
loves you, you will forgive each other."
"It's not something to just get over or work out. It's a real issue and I'm not
going..." she swallowed against the lump in her throat as tears coursed down
her cheeks. "I'm not going to waste the time figuring out ways to break each
other's hearts."
"Love is compromises. Working things out. It may be difficult, and take a
while, but it should eventually work itself out. How are you gonna know if it's
fixable if you never try?"
"Some things can't be fixed. Sometimes there is a certain order to the universe
that has to be followed."
"But love, true love, is the chaos to that order."
"But can I deal with that?" She was finally defeated.
"Do you truly love him?"
"Painfully."
"Then you can deal with this, and any other thing that will come between you
two."
"Anything?" she asked hopefully, wiping tears from her cheeks. It was what she
needed to hear.
"Anything and everything."
Closing her eyes and taking in a shaky breath, Elissabeth opened her eyes to
say thank you.
And found no one there.
Nothing but a full glass of water.
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