<USS Avalon> Breaking Up is Easy to Do

 =/\= Breaking Up is Easy to Do =/\=
a Joint log between El-Kainah Ngiao and Dagny Taggert

       El-Kainah went back to his own quarters, after having left the 
Library.  It was the first time he had gone there in a few days.  He had been 
spending a lot of time in Dagny's bed.  Really, too much, as he had discovered 
in the 
Library.
       How could I have been so stupid? He asked himself as he entered his 
quarters.  He went in the still Spartan quarters were not very hospitable.  
Even 
to one who lived there.  He came in and sat on the Starfleet issue sofa.  But 
he still wasn't comfortable.
       You know better than that El.  You know you shouldn't lead with that 
part of your anatomy.  
       The chime at his door sounded, bringing him out of his 
self-chastisement.  "Come in." he called.  He felt that it was Dagny and when 
the door was 
opened, he was proved correct.  "I'm glad you came, I need to talk to you."  He 
said before she could even say anything.
       "Of course, El."  She smiled at him but it was forced, and he could 
tell.  
       "It isn't working, Dagny."  They were standing in the living area.  
"We aren't right for one another."  He spoke with a finality in his voice.  "I 
don't want to hurt you, and I have had fun, but I have to do what is right for 
me."
       She nodded.  She knew they weren't supposed to be together in the long 
run too.  "I've known for a few days, El.  I just didn't want to hurt you 
either.  I've been talking to some friends.  They all saw it."
       "So have I." He admitted.  He took her hand.  It was like touching a 
dead wire.  Nothing.  His mind went to Miri for some reason and recalled the 
touch they had shared in the library.  It was completely opposite of the one he 
and Dagny had just shared.  
       He lead her to the sofa where they both could sit down.  "I'm sorry 
Dagny."  He smiled at her a moment.  "Part of me wishes it could be different.  
That we were different."
       She nodded as tears trickled from her eyes.  "We were both lonely El.  
You more than me but both of us were lonely.  We filled each other for a 
while, and..."  She trailed off a bit as El nodded his agreement. 
       "We can still be good friends Dagny.  And I would like that very 
much."  He smiled again.  She nodded.
       "Me too.  You're a nice guy El.  And who knows, maybe when we aren't 
so lonely..."  She trailed off again.
       El nodded again, but he knew that they would never be together in that 
way again.  He wasn't really even sure how close of friends they would end up 
being.  But it was an offer he felt he had to make under the circumstances. 
       She nodded silently before standing up.  "Well, I better let you get 
ready.  I'll see you in Sickbay El."  She smiled at him a bit.  "We'll be fine 
El, really."
       He nodded.  "Sure.  We can still have coffee on break together and 
stuff."  He saw her face change but he decided to let it go.  "I'll see you 
soon."  And with that, it was over between them.  And she left.

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